Friday, February 08, 2008
how time flies. its already the end of day 2 of CNY! crazy aint it? im getting sooo nervous over our wed match at fairfield against them! its like at their school and there will be swarms of supporters who just keep keep jeering my team! such idiots. oh well. we have to play under such stuff.. how sad!
anyway im soooo scared i cant get my form back. it was a win for us but not a personal 1 for me cause i really had a bad game. its just a nightmare. a real terrifying one! worse than vampires coming me whatsoever. now i gotta get over it and just have good games from now! the best solution.have been thinking so much bout it and i guess im prepared. hopefully. if whatever i thought of is right and i overcome this mental barrier!
tests are coming too and its not easy to handle both at the same time! im gonna stop soccer after my tournament and just mug mug mug mug mug! i gotta do well! o levels! haha
chinese new year this year not nice! no atmosphere. its like just any other day with more visitors. thats all! but i like my new clothes! this is one pic with my sis for day 1!!
the nice siblings? haha. love my new clothes! the sports era is gone. bye dry fit clothes! haha in comes my cottonish ones!! hehe, love my new wardrobe.. lol!
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]11:00 PM
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
anyway, ytd was great! we beat beatty sec 3-2. team spirit was so good i tell you! and it was such an exciting match. trev gave us the lead at 1-0, then we were losing 2-1 then we fought hard to win 3-2! what a classic fairytale! love it. really thank god for his grace and everything that gave us this victory!
but nth is ever totally gd. so there were bad points too la. our 1st team is very united, but our subs arent exactly the same, maybe its ego or i dunno wad. but its all the more skilful players. and they feel that they shld be playing rather than the 1st team. but soccer is a team game, thats why its 11v11 and not 1v1 right? oh well the world is made up all kinds of people. but its real hard to deal with such matters cause im so scared about our team breaking down!
and i had a very bad game. ok maybe not that bad. but certainly not to my standards. but this is where double standards come in! i was rather upset cause like. lets say im compared to other players on the pitch, i contributed more that some of them. but everyone feels i played so badly, like bad till cant be any worse, when actually others did worse..so im like. already down coz i was disappointed with myself, then pple keep saying and only made matters worse. oh well, i will try to improve! reflected a lot already!
but i gotta admit i was real pleased with our team spirit, even greater than the victory itself! its like, we "roared' 4 times in a single match. normally its only done before the game, but ytd, i did it eveytime we needed the extra push. and it works! every cheer just shows the passion and desire in us!
haha i got marked and hit like crazy but i guess its worthwhile. the team spirit just makes everyone feel so gd! its like great! haha. lets hope we improve even more! next match vs fairfield! gonna be real tough with their supporters so i really hope many pple come down to support us! it really makes a diff!
now i can proudly say something of our team!
PASSION , DESIRE , US =D
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]10:12 PM
Thursday, January 31, 2008
but i survived training today!with the help of a lot of counterpain! my perfect painkillerish cream :D but training is getting worse and worse. its so difficult to come out with appropraite drills. what make things worse is the fact my team is like so undisciplined and arent willing to cooperate! takes so long to get everything running well! i need a coach!
anyway, we dont have time left to change much so it doesnt really matter such a big deal. our 1st match is this coming monday and im so excited!hope more people will come down to fairfield to support us! haha psychological boost will do us good!
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]10:18 PM
Sunday, January 27, 2008
today was fine. i had tuition in the morning. then i studied and did hw throughout the afternoon. then i went to jurong point for dinner with my parents.haha im such a greedy person. i ate at long johnsilvers and added fries and coleslaw to my combo. but at least i finished my food. so its not that bad! yep im gonna try to save lots and lots of money! money gives me a sense of security.. haha sounds dumb huh.
walau my blog is still so dead though im blogging like more often! haha thats also cause i refuse to broadcast my blog cause its private? :P haha. omg la, jon ong bought my precious pink shirt! haha there goes my nice unique shirt. haha oh well.. maybe i can be consoled by the fact he is my bro! haha but anything la. doesnt really matter la huh.
ok i need to go shopping. buy my chinese new year clothes. desperate now. haha next weekend last week to go shop last min already. i still need berms!! haha.. havent bought any at all la.
aiya i got nth else to add on already. besides the fact hw is killing me!
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]10:26 PM
Friday, January 25, 2008
basically nth much happened today, school dismissed at 11, st johns till bout 4. met the sec1s who i am in charge of. looks not too bad but just kinda noisy and all, which is normal, so see how lor.
ytd was a bad and nice day. i got b3 for chinese and its so sad. so now im gonna drop higher chinese to retake my chinese o levels cause b3 for chinese is just too lousy! such a pity, maybe i shld have just studied harder. but the past is gone and i shld just learn from my mistakes.
really wish i can convert my soccer attitude to my academics. in soccer nothing can stop me from training hard and improving. even my fractured thumb cant stop me. but in academics, simple small things distract me and all, such that i can never concentrate and study hard enough.
ytd was another good day for my b div. we won 2-0, good goal from trev and derek. im happy that we all played our hearts out, ran so much and gave all we did. i played hard to. told myself i had to prove myself to the team all over again and i guess i did just that, apart from my corners. yup so credit to everyone for this win.
well but 1 thing that spoiled the game was that 1 guy was so sad after the match. worse still, he's like the only person a few of us know. haha cant believe im so nice to go to the extent of going through weijit and his cousin to get his number just to like console him.
and i realised whats bad bout me! i like people to reciprocrate things i do. but actually that aint impt. cause we do things because we want to. and whether pple appreciate and reciprocrate or not, thats not really impt, and this way, we should be happy for doing good even if the other party doesnt reciprocrate.
yup so to end this, i still hope that guy will not be so sad cause everyone makes mistakes, especially since ur the youngest 1 so hope he understands and stop putting so much pressure on himself. but im glad to find pple who take soccer so seriously! :)
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:25 PM
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
i understand that 1 of them dun wanna risk injury, but you mean im not afraid of injuring my thumb? mine's a fracture, urs is a wound. but the team means that much to me that im willing to take the risk, but u all arent.
this team stuck together for so long, and just as tournament is around the corner, everything seems to be getting worse. i didnt have a gd training ytd, that i know. thats why i stayed back for extra 1 1/2 hr to train with my goal keeper. my thumb getting this is bad enough. now im losing my form. the worst thing, is my team mate, my very gd friend comes along to put me down. its like totally wth la. its not that im not putting in effort, everyone has their off days. and as a team, we are supposed to encourage.
this is so stupid. im putting in so much effort into a team that doesnt appreciate it at all. so now it all doesnt seem worth it. this sucks so much.
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:07 PM
Sunday, January 20, 2008
LOL. more than 2 months since i last blogged. thats quite long. sec4 is sooo busy, hardly have that much free time! this year has been... err.. good? bad? i broke my thumb! 04/01/08. 2nd day of school. but its not too bad la. life goes on, so many concerned people, and it tests my faith! which only got stronger! haha. quite worth it la huh? really thankful and happy to know so many people cares, this aint sth you get to see everyday. and you get to see people whom u are supposedly close to not care at all! that sucks.
LDP was great! ipoh/KL. super nice. so sad i couldnt do height elements and whitewater rafting, my only regrets! but shopping was great, and the time spent with classmates. its was so funny!lemme upload some.
Our class walking up the staircase in the cave!
Class pic, taken in the cave
Another class pic!
Team Building games
Team building with a WRONG twist! looks wrong and we are all having fun! =P
On the Canopy Walk! it wasnt scary at all!
3 Gays! hahaa actually its only 1 person acting, purple= gay!
WeiYi, Me, Eugene Tan
See how tired we are!
haha eugene tan is my sparstic friend in the trip! he made me so crazy and all. ya i'll blog again soon!
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]10:04 PM