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Thursday, September 21, 2006
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arghh.. im a failure.. i waited how many days for this important n precous day but within mins.. all that i waited for juz disappeared... n its all my fault.. everytime im so close to success.. i fall face flat.. i rather i didnt see her.
goes lyk this.. in the nite.. i sldnt control it.. i was dreaming bout all sorts of scenarios..juz cldnt help it.. n none seemed favourable..woke up wif a splitting headache.was bad..but i jumped out of bed as i knew today was 1 day i could not be late..then reached rather early..
this e worst part..3 pple kenna caught for underage smokin..then i was kapo.. so went to upstairs the train platform then keep trying to see wad happen lar..then i purposely move to a "strategic" position..where the escalator was close to the top so i cld easily wish her happy bdae..but it was not to be..i was so engrossed in the happenings that i didnt notice her pass..when i did it was to late..in the train she was wif her friends..n i had to courage to pop over to wish her! such a loser i am..
skool..i told myself i was depressed..cldnt help it..things got worse..recess..9.20.. i buy chawanmushi..then auntie gimme very lil.. haha that sup was juz retarded..then my friends go laugh at me..juz for fun lar..
so in class after that i was lying on my table..wif my nose running lyk siao n occasionally tearing i dunno y.mayb i fell sick..then my friends keep laughin at me.. being DEPRESSED..then later when returning ws..i did it but my tcher lost mine..neva return..so i got more DEPRESSED..then my friends predicted that i wun get back my wb..REALLY LEH..i actually didnt write my name... so i was totally depressed liao.. then the day followed.. wad cld be worst rite..
come home study.. but now my nose is really bad.. n i feel really lousy..both mentally n physically.. haix.. wad am i?? a broken failure... :(
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:10 PM