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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
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life ain't really good these days.my studies are ok, but everything else seem to be crumbling! my maths seem to be improving and for that, im happy. but soccer is kind of driving me nuts.is it a generation gap or what? why cant sec1s just understand? i dun believe we were like that, neither were the present sec2s.
they dont listen or cooperate. what do they think soccer is? just a pasttime? just to kick the ball about? NO, this is a cca. we are here cause we want to train and bring glory to school.if u dont share the same belief, why dont you just get out!
im pissed.really am.first have the daniel chan incident. now most of them are even worse than him.only gabriel loke is really serious about soccer. but frankly i think daniel is too much and he aint thinking for himself too. i tell him frankly to ask for ball when he play in the midfield, he dun listen, instead turn away and dao. ok fine. fair enough. do u ever realise that how u ply, how u fair does not affect my life at all? we will NEVER play in the same division, team. but im doing all cause i care. but if this is wad im going to get in return, i dont think its worth it.think for yourself.i dont think you are dumb.
anyway as each day passes, the more i feel i should just completely not bother about you guys.
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]8:25 PM
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Sunday, January 28, 2007
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tmr mon again. monday blues. haha ok anyway i've made up my mind. and that is not to bother about dc anymore. i've tried my best. but now you dun even want to reply my smses so fine. i made a mistake and maybe this is what i get and i accept it. but if u ever read this i will tell you that i never meant you any harm. all i wanted was to help you adapt to sec school life easily. and everything i said was for your own good. cause i want you to captain the team when u become sec2. but since you dont appreciate it, you dont want to hear then i give up.
but you thought me a lesson. and that is not to be so kind and nice to my juniors. maybe i tried too hard. just too hard. ok now i wont bother about you guys too much. i shall just live my life and not try to interfere with others'
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]10:11 PM
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Friday, January 26, 2007
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ok finally friday flies here again. my favourite time of the week. friday NIGHT. today went sjab. only 1 n 1/2 hr though. but i so inlucky kennna timer. but ok cause i feel that my timing very loud.so im satisfied. the business at school lecture later was rather boring. plus i was tired. so i dozed off. then tcher woke me up. so paiseh lor!
came home late. ate instant noodles and stuff. think im gonna fall sick now. i feel hungry but when i eat more i feel like puking. crap lar. life just aint going well for me now.im scared i puke tonight la. then that will suck big time.
tournament begins next week.cant afford to fall sick man.and i really hope the dc n i thing can be solved asap!
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]10:36 PM
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
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Lifes bad bad bad! tues everything went wrong with dc and i. juniors are harder to handle as years goes by. its only been 2 years but maybe it wasnt a good idea to be so nice to juniors after all. im bringing unnecessary trouble to myself.
hao xin mei hao bao. from now i guess i wont be so nice to my juniors anymore. just live my own life and treat mmy best friends well.afterall, they are the ones i know and know me well.
ytd was dumb. i left my schoolbag in school after training, only taking my soccer bag. then after dinner at clementi i realised. then i rush back to school. lucky still there. otherwise i die liao.
think stress is overtaking my brains. i cant seem to concentrate in anything i attempt to do!wanna give up. lucky tmr friday liao
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:33 PM
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007
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today was a total horrid day! hate it. training was physically good, as in i enjoyed it, but matters that occured off the field pissed me off.. i helped convey a msg and got screwed for saying stuff i didnt say. then dc apparently said i was gay just cause i am nice to him. like wth lor. so i got really pissed altogether.
however now he claims l was just kidding and that he didnt say anything at all. if thats the case, i ought to be very sorry cause i went down hard on dc today. but its really complicated. dunno who i should believe. but the big qn now is, is it worth losing a friendship over such matters?
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:41 PM
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Monday, January 22, 2007
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another day gone but i like today! our ct finally showed her nicer side! now i can conclude. she's a good teacher
ok at times she is really biased. not against me but i can feel it.but she is actually kinda righteous. if thats the right word. when we do wrong, she goes hard on us. however, when we put in effort and do good, it will not go forgotten. in fact she commends us, irregardless of wad we did in the past. she is even willing to forgive hose who did wrong, taking back demerits.
finally the truth is shown. im glad i didnt jump to conclusions and simply trusted my judgements. haha think this year is gonna be a good 1. a nice class to be in, very good teachers. what a wonderful 2007 waiting for me :)
haha my junior dc is so darn funny. haha cute man. "sobs" i will never forget. lol. haha really believe its the duty of seniors to take care of juniors!nothing wrong right? haha
hopefully, kindness wont be forgotten. i will just be happy if they dun get led astray and be able to make good decisions in life. i myself made wrong decisions which i regret. but hopefully it aint too late and im sure theres time to redeem myself =)
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:18 PM
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Sunday, January 21, 2007
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ok today had tuition. haha i didnt do much homework. last minute. only did 2 cloze passages. surprisingly, my teacher never scold. maybe she understnad that im tired and busy just after my trip. and im kinda grateful for that. haha when people treat you well, must really be grateful. never ever take anything or anyone for granted.
then there was an essay about parents vs friends. who is more impt in my life?
blood truly is thicker than water but when it comes to certain issues im sure i would rather confide in my best friends.
parents and siblings probably are the people who would willingly help you without a second thought, but sometimes i feel my friends understand me better.
nevertheless im very happy and satisfied in the family im in!oh today my dad just bought a new pair of nike sports shoes to share with me. ubt actually its more like he buy for me :) he seldom wears sports shoes, so its more like my shoe. but nevermind. he probably just said that so my mum wldnt exactly nag. not that she is naggy but i already bought a new adidas pair ytd =)
ok tomorrow back to school! dont know if its a good thing but i dont mind....
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]10:15 PM
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
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charity bazaar is over! we did not bad lar. got back 300+ means we earned 200+
went to school early to get good place, set up stall. last night finished my beautiful price list. haha good we managed to sell everything, so my hard work paid off. ms ong and mr lee also helped towards the end. so everyone chipped in 1 way or another so im very satisfied!
went to jp for dinner with my parents, and i bought my new "school" shoes. quite nice lar. adidas. not too ex, 69.90. was 89.90 initially. its very white except some black highlights here and there. the 3 stripes very cool. black fade to white. so i like it!
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]10:15 PM
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Friday, January 19, 2007
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ok weekend again! but tomorrow i have to go school for charity bazaar. looking forward to it though.
haha managed to get some pics from vietnam. some very well taken too. but wait till i get all then i upload.
today was not too bad. didnt enjoy after 12.40 though. had to do poster then weiyi went back to school give teacher. but nevertheless not bad cause i think it was quite well done. my hardwork lor!
ok shall go do pricelist now. good night pals.!
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:54 PM
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
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finally back from OEP.
its been a great learning experience.i made friends with almost all my classmates. initially i thought being in a geper class would be boring but actually they aint all those book worms.
however, there are some probs here and there as usual that somehow kind os spoilt some parts of the trip! but i believe if we all do our best, all misunderstandings can be solved.
teachers are really people who deserve our respect.i mean ok at times there are miscommunications here and there and maybe at times teachers just dont understanding how we think and stuff but we all have to look at the nice and good things they do for us too right?we always point out the bad things they do but do we ever look at the good things they do for us?
thats one thing we have to consider. maybe all would go well if we point out the mistakes we make and correct ourselves before we talk about what others do. this is the biggest lesson i learnt during OEP!
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:00 PM
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
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ok todays wed. im using the com for 1 reason. im flying off tmr.. and as usual.. its emo period the day before i fly off, thinking of all sorts of disasters and everything. listening to news of terrorists and all. simply drives a chill down your spine.
7 days is quite a long period. and im already thinking of how much i will miss my friends. its just like last year. 1st day- homesick. but as time passes start to enjoy it and b4 you know it, its all over.then you start to regret not treasuring every moment there. but by then its too late.
this week has been rather good. made new friends. especially with juniors. thats 1 big acheivement, to gain their respect. though some of them, their respects aint worth anything to me at all.
but ive been very nice to one of them. maybe i shldnt, it aint really fair to the rest.so ok tonight i shall try helping him for the last time and after that, all neutral. ok i will be going vietnam tmr! miss you peoplee! see you soon!
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:41 PM
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Saturday, January 06, 2007
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haix.1 day of the weekend is over.so sad! wa i gave 1 classmate my code for my locker. now im so scared he steal my books. then im dead. cause all my 3 science books in there. total cosst $75. so scared.man.. maybe i shldnt have gave him my code. but cant do anything now, only can wait for monday n i go see. but shldnt be stolen lar.
ok i went back to school today for "2nd round" of selections. we saw the people who wanna join soccer. so many so im quite happy. they all arent too bad. better than i was in sec 1 haha. but some are really so irritating.haha just wanted to punch some of them. on the other han, i think some are quite nice. 1 guy didnt come today, then i hao xin sms me but he reply so rude! hahhaa... but dont care lar, now i dont exactly know them yet, better not be too nice, or it'll be too close for comfort? hahahahhaha
ok so i really really hope my books are not lost, or else im in deep trouble. so now, hope god can help me and make sure they dont take my books. im worried. really am...
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]8:27 PM
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Friday, January 05, 2007
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with great power comes great responsibility. this is one phrase i would never forget. never.
now that im class chairman and captain of soccer, i dont think i can take up any more responsibilities, guess my life is as stressed as it is. not easy to juggle all these, together with my studies. and i think my friendship has been at the suffering end.
now tht im pressed for time, i seem to be a lousier senior, not being to be as nice and understanding and helpful to my juniors. the friendship at the worst situation now is with zach. when i put in effort, do everything i can to help you can care you dont realise and appreciate it. taking me for granted. only when i decide to give up do you realise that i was actually so nice to you. but is it too late? thats the biggest qn in my mind.a friendship has to be maintained by both parties. otherwise no matter what 1 party does, nth will come out of it.
the biggest issue is that i cant accept my best friend to look down on my cca.ok i agree we havent been able to achieve as much as rugby but you have to look at funding and everything too. you get the best players through DSA and then selections. all we get are people unwanted by other sports. you get a beautiful rugby field, we get a field with overgrown grass. we get an astro turf, you must leave a mark by placing rugby posts, and now we cant even have matches as the rugby posts block our goal posts from being on the goal line.
and as a best friend, what i need is constant encouragement, not words to put me down.others can look down on soccer, but how can you. thats the burning qn.so what do you want from me?
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]8:31 PM
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stress.thats probably the best word to describe my life right now. as much as i dont want it to, i have no choice.
1st 3 days in school arent too bad.i was made class chairman by my class teacher, ms ong. dont know why zachary dont like her, feel that she is quite a nice teacher. but ytd mr john lee kinda scolded me for sth i feel i shldnt have been scolded about.i got scolded that i didnt call my classmates into class when they were outside class.and they apparently werent doing anything bad. so how was i supposed to know? i have my own work too.
so i was really frustrated and simply wanted to give up this post after my trip to vietnam.however, today and ytd ms ong has been really nice to me.not scolding me that i've not bought my book and that i didnt complete 3 sums for hw. actually biasness could be a better word. the 2 china scholars didnt do also and got scolded but i didnt.
i find her rather understanding a caring too. today jeremy's bag got lost.she made an effort to go find it.when she saw me she told me and asked my whether i knew about it.instead of asking me to help or whatsoever, she told me not to worry about it and she thanked me for my wanting to help.
ytd when i helped her she said thank you too.a sense of accomplishment? i like these teachers cause they show that they really appreciate every effort we try to make their life easier.
so because of how nice she was to me, i've decided not to step down,at least for the time being.she was the one who selected me to be class chairman.being confident that i am perfect for the post,that she made the right choice.so how can i give up and simply disappoint her? its quite bad lar huh, giving her hope when i accpeted it, and giving up so soon after.
but in my heart, im really thankful to have met such a teacher. one who have injected confidence into me once again just by her presence. now i know that every contribution, every effort i made in the years here in acs(i) is not wasted.
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]7:35 PM
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Tuesday, January 02, 2007
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school reopens tmr! weird feeling in me. both nervous but excited. meet new friends.. i mean make. haha this class looks rather different, so many new faces.
nevermind lar, no point being nervous. just be happy and face it.anyway no matter what i have to face it right? so might as well face it happily.
ok i've finally uploaded some of my china pictures...
ok all set and ready to go to school tomorrow. haha next time i get to blog is probably on saturday. cause im going study hard and not play computer on weekdays, only weekends. i have to do well! haha
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:36 PM
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Monday, January 01, 2007
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1st january already. school is reopening in 2 days. im not prepared. not at all.really think most of my holidays were wasted. but i cant turn the clock back. all i can do is make full use of the future. once school reopens im really going to study very hard. i have got to stop wasting my brains!
haha so the probs im going to face next year... hmmm.. i can foresee.. err..overly tough competition within my class.. all gepers..then sjab march camp. arghh..haha then comes all the ships..you know.. friendships.. relationships. HAHA hope not man.
ok tonights the last episode of the pilot show..so sad..its such a nice show but all good things come to an end. even in the best friendships, one day will come whereby it will simply crumble and all you can do is tear as you clear the mess. when this happens, would we be able to just say that we can be happy for the memories shared? easy to say but not easy to do!
ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END..... :(
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]9:21 PM
