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Wednesday, November 07, 2007
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days keep passing by, and i've accomplished nothing. i seriously think im gonna let this holiday just slip by. and at the end of it, i get frustrated that i did nothing. lazing about, doing nothing. is this really how i want to spend my holidays? a question only i can answer.
things are getting really bad now, and life is just getting stressful. academics aint causing stress, ccas are. well, really wonder. the whole idea of cca is just for us to pick up new skills, to interact. i think im getting everything wrong. really wrong. maybe im not setting my priorities right. im not sure. i dont know. really dont. everything seems to be going wrong. at this rate, i probably will lose friendships. for wad? nothing. its not worth it, but things are just so freaking messed up. i wanna be a normal simple guy. have no idea why in the world im taking up responsibilities. one after another. and im taking things too seriously i guess. maybe its time i take the back seat and relax. people are enjoying the holidays, while im getting myself stressed up by things which could in the end, turn out to be insignificant.
maybe its high time i take a good look at myself. soul-searching they call it. on one hand im telling people this and that, and i want them to listen. but when people tells me things, do i listen? i expect so much from others, yet i cant do anything for others. i critisize others' leadership. but can i really lead? seems like im getting carried away too, in fact more than anyone else. leadership is good, but maybe im just not cut out for it.
really got to set my priorities right. and learn to chill. otherwise im gonna go crazy soon. for stuff that aint worth it at all. i need to cool down. but the question now is how.
[[Another moment of discovering Life]]10:47 PM