World Of Soccer

2008-02-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

how time flies. its already the end of day 2 of CNY! crazy aint it? im getting sooo nervous over our wed match at fairfield against them! its like at their school and there will be swarms of supporters who just keep keep jeering my team! such idiots. oh well. we have to play under such stuff.. how sad!

anyway im soooo scared i cant get my form back. it was a win for us but not a personal 1 for me cause i really had a bad game. its just a nightmare. a real terrifying one! worse than vampires coming me whatsoever. now i gotta get over it and just have good games from now! the best solution.have been thinking so much bout it and i guess im prepared. hopefully. if whatever i thought of is right and i overcome this mental barrier!

tests are coming too and its not easy to handle both at the same time! im gonna stop soccer after my tournament and just mug mug mug mug mug! i gotta do well! o levels! haha

chinese new year this year not nice! no atmosphere. its like just any other day with more visitors. thats all! but i like my new clothes! this is one pic with my sis for day 1!!

the nice siblings? haha. love my new clothes! the sports era is gone. bye dry fit clothes! haha in comes my cottonish ones!! hehe, love my new wardrobe.. lol!

2008-02-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

omg holidays are here! best feeling on earth. no more school till monday. that's like wad.. er.. 6 days? omg! haha

anyway, ytd was great! we beat beatty sec 3-2. team spirit was so good i tell you! and it was such an exciting match. trev gave us the lead at 1-0, then we were losing 2-1 then we fought hard to win 3-2! what a classic fairytale! love it. really thank god for his grace and everything that gave us this victory!

but nth is ever totally gd. so there were bad points too la. our 1st team is very united, but our subs arent exactly the same, maybe its ego or i dunno wad. but its all the more skilful players. and they feel that they shld be playing rather than the 1st team. but soccer is a team game, thats why its 11v11 and not 1v1 right? oh well the world is made up all kinds of people. but its real hard to deal with such matters cause im so scared about our team breaking down!

and i had a very bad game. ok maybe not that bad. but certainly not to my standards. but this is where double standards come in! i was rather upset cause like. lets say im compared to other players on the pitch, i contributed more that some of them. but everyone feels i played so badly, like bad till cant be any worse, when actually others did worse..so im like. already down coz i was disappointed with myself, then pple keep saying and only made matters worse. oh well, i will try to improve! reflected a lot already!

but i gotta admit i was real pleased with our team spirit, even greater than the victory itself! its like, we "roared' 4 times in a single match. normally its only done before the game, but ytd, i did it eveytime we needed the extra push. and it works! every cheer just shows the passion and desire in us!

haha i got marked and hit like crazy but i guess its worthwhile. the team spirit just makes everyone feel so gd! its like great! haha. lets hope we improve even more! next match vs fairfield! gonna be real tough with their supporters so i really hope many pple come down to support us! it really makes a diff!

now i can proudly say something of our team!
PASSION , DESIRE , US =D

2008-01-31T22:18:00.000+08:00

week5 is almost over! im real tired! real real real real real tired! so sad la. tues my left thigh and calf and right calf all cramp during training! and my left thigh still hurts like mad. tough luck! 1st it was my thumb and before my thumb recovered got all these!

but i survived training today!with the help of a lot of counterpain! my perfect painkillerish cream :D but training is getting worse and worse. its so difficult to come out with appropraite drills. what make things worse is the fact my team is like so undisciplined and arent willing to cooperate! takes so long to get everything running well! i need a coach!

anyway, we dont have time left to change much so it doesnt really matter such a big deal. our 1st match is this coming monday and im so excited!hope more people will come down to fairfield to support us! haha psychological boost will do us good!

2008-01-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

awww man! tmr is monday again. back to school. monday blues! but im kinda excited cause its my appointment tmr! haha i hope i will be clear and the doctor tells me im fine. haha pray for me la huh!

today was fine. i had tuition in the morning. then i studied and did hw throughout the afternoon. then i went to jurong point for dinner with my parents.haha im such a greedy person. i ate at long johnsilvers and added fries and coleslaw to my combo. but at least i finished my food. so its not that bad! yep im gonna try to save lots and lots of money! money gives me a sense of security.. haha sounds dumb huh.

walau my blog is still so dead though im blogging like more often! haha thats also cause i refuse to broadcast my blog cause its private? :P haha. omg la, jon ong bought my precious pink shirt! haha there goes my nice unique shirt. haha oh well.. maybe i can be consoled by the fact he is my bro! haha but anything la. doesnt really matter la huh.

ok i need to go shopping. buy my chinese new year clothes. desperate now. haha next weekend last week to go shop last min already. i still need berms!! haha.. havent bought any at all la.

aiya i got nth else to add on already. besides the fact hw is killing me!

2008-01-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

the week is done.so tired.i wanted to keep getting extra training.but i guess those training really wear me out a lot!monday pe had to run 3km.after school train. tues train. thurs friendly match, fri pe run somemore!im like so tired now.

basically nth much happened today, school dismissed at 11, st johns till bout 4. met the sec1s who i am in charge of. looks not too bad but just kinda noisy and all, which is normal, so see how lor.

ytd was a bad and nice day. i got b3 for chinese and its so sad. so now im gonna drop higher chinese to retake my chinese o levels cause b3 for chinese is just too lousy! such a pity, maybe i shld have just studied harder. but the past is gone and i shld just learn from my mistakes.

really wish i can convert my soccer attitude to my academics. in soccer nothing can stop me from training hard and improving. even my fractured thumb cant stop me. but in academics, simple small things distract me and all, such that i can never concentrate and study hard enough.

ytd was another good day for my b div. we won 2-0, good goal from trev and derek. im happy that we all played our hearts out, ran so much and gave all we did. i played hard to. told myself i had to prove myself to the team all over again and i guess i did just that, apart from my corners. yup so credit to everyone for this win.

well but 1 thing that spoiled the game was that 1 guy was so sad after the match. worse still, he's like the only person a few of us know. haha cant believe im so nice to go to the extent of going through weijit and his cousin to get his number just to like console him.

and i realised whats bad bout me! i like people to reciprocrate things i do. but actually that aint impt. cause we do things because we want to. and whether pple appreciate and reciprocrate or not, thats not really impt, and this way, we should be happy for doing good even if the other party doesnt reciprocrate.

yup so to end this, i still hope that guy will not be so sad cause everyone makes mistakes, especially since ur the youngest 1 so hope he understands and stop putting so much pressure on himself. but im glad to find pple who take soccer so seriously! :)

2008-01-23T21:07:00.000+08:00

things look to be getting better, then it all goes back to nothing. our soccer team was so bad in sec2, in sec3 there was a steep improvement, then just when it gets better, now its bad again. we have a friendly tmr, and both my 1st team centre backs arent going. their reasons are in a way valid, but then again its a real test of commitment.

i understand that 1 of them dun wanna risk injury, but you mean im not afraid of injuring my thumb? mine's a fracture, urs is a wound. but the team means that much to me that im willing to take the risk, but u all arent.

this team stuck together for so long, and just as tournament is around the corner, everything seems to be getting worse. i didnt have a gd training ytd, that i know. thats why i stayed back for extra 1 1/2 hr to train with my goal keeper. my thumb getting this is bad enough. now im losing my form. the worst thing, is my team mate, my very gd friend comes along to put me down. its like totally wth la. its not that im not putting in effort, everyone has their off days. and as a team, we are supposed to encourage.

this is so stupid. im putting in so much effort into a team that doesnt appreciate it at all. so now it all doesnt seem worth it. this sucks so much.

2008-01-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

LOL. more than 2 months since i last blogged. thats quite long. sec4 is sooo busy, hardly have that much free time! this year has been... err.. good? bad? i broke my thumb! 04/01/08. 2nd day of school. but its not too bad la. life goes on, so many concerned people, and it tests my faith! which only got stronger! haha. quite worth it la huh? really thankful and happy to know so many people cares, this aint sth you get to see everyday. and you get to see people whom u are supposedly close to not care at all! that sucks.

LDP was great! ipoh/KL. super nice. so sad i couldnt do height elements and whitewater rafting, my only regrets! but shopping was great, and the time spent with classmates. its was so funny!lemme upload some.

Our class walking up the staircase in the cave!

Class pic, taken in the cave

Another class pic!

Team Building games

Team building with a WRONG twist! looks wrong and we are all having fun! =P

On the Canopy Walk! it wasnt scary at all!

3 Gays! hahaa actually its only 1 person acting, purple= gay!

WeiYi, Me, Eugene Tan

See how tired we are!

haha eugene tan is my sparstic friend in the trip! he made me so crazy and all. ya i'll blog again soon!

2007-11-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

days keep passing by, and i've accomplished nothing. i seriously think im gonna let this holiday just slip by. and at the end of it, i get frustrated that i did nothing. lazing about, doing nothing. is this really how i want to spend my holidays? a question only i can answer.

things are getting really bad now, and life is just getting stressful. academics aint causing stress, ccas are. well, really wonder. the whole idea of cca is just for us to pick up new skills, to interact. i think im getting everything wrong. really wrong. maybe im not setting my priorities right. im not sure. i dont know. really dont. everything seems to be going wrong. at this rate, i probably will lose friendships. for wad? nothing. its not worth it, but things are just so freaking messed up. i wanna be a normal simple guy. have no idea why in the world im taking up responsibilities. one after another. and im taking things too seriously i guess. maybe its time i take the back seat and relax. people are enjoying the holidays, while im getting myself stressed up by things which could in the end, turn out to be insignificant.

maybe its high time i take a good look at myself. soul-searching they call it. on one hand im telling people this and that, and i want them to listen. but when people tells me things, do i listen? i expect so much from others, yet i cant do anything for others. i critisize others' leadership. but can i really lead? seems like im getting carried away too, in fact more than anyone else. leadership is good, but maybe im just not cut out for it.

really got to set my priorities right. and learn to chill. otherwise im gonna go crazy soon. for stuff that aint worth it at all. i need to cool down. but the question now is how.

2007-10-27T22:13:00.001+08:00

wow, my blog is close to 300entries. thats the list of history i've had! this year had to end, and it did. with its end, we all move on. im lucky that my classmates remain the same, so i dont feel any hurt of losing classmates. however, teachers change and in a way, its a sad thing too. our friendships with our teachers, and basically looking at how interactions change relationships btween tchers and students is an interesting thing! haha but all these are memories now, cause its over. thanks for the memories! but moving on is stil what we have to do, like it or not. so throw away the bad stuff, remember the sweet nice memories :)

fri was a nice way to end school. i had a double promotion is sjab! now im a staff. thats perfect aint it? :) but i've really contributed much in the past few weeks, at least i tried my best. so hope this will inspire me to do more! haha

2007-10-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

exams have been over. time is being wasted.emotions are high up in my life now. once again.

these quiet times are best. when i can really sit down and ponder. over everything i've done. over everyone i've hurt. i really want to be a good nice person, free from insults and all. im done enough harm. enough.

i feel really bad now. lost the trust someone had in me. lost his everything. and right now, while i feel he is changing for the worse, i give up and back down, leaving him all alone to be condemned? and i call myself his bro. what a joke. im really ashamed of myself, filled with regret and remorse. but i realy dun know wad i can do. if you arent willing to even give my a chance to care. i know it hurt you a great deal, even though you dont want to tell me, but trust me, i can feel it. and im sorry, really sorry.

now its gonna be so tough to gain back your trust. but believe me, i will stop at nothing to get it back. cause im to blame for losing it. perhaps fun became so impt, i stopped caring bout ur feelings. this truly is a great lesson to me, maybe too great for me, but i brought it upon myself.

i wil pray for you, hope you will not change for the worst, but instead be what you used to be. i also really hope we can be bros again and not be so cold towards each other, but thats sth only you can decide.

hope i will really treasure everyone around me from now. before its too late. and in case i did wrong in the past, i hope its not too late to start afresh.

2007-10-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

exams over, finally i must say. its was tiring, really was. but now its all over, and we'll bear the fruits of our labour, sth i know wont be good, in my case. but its over now, we cant turn back time, so the only thing we can do is learn, from our mistakes. looking back, i really feel sad, caues its like i've wasted a yr, one entire year. but 1 thing for sure is, i've been a good friend :) hopefully..

my stand is still clear, be true to myself, be the proper mirror for ur friends. all of us have faults, but we cant see it ourselves. thats why we really need true friends. to see our faults and correct us. thats sth i will definitely do. dont be the spoilt mirror, only praising but never telling the truth. we shld always do both. praise when we can, correct when we need to. that would be ideal.

now that exams are over, we shld consider, where do we want to go from here. my aims are clear. academics and soccer. im gonna study during this holidays, to strengthen my foundation, especially in all i've learnt this year! in soccer, i want to train hard, and together with my team-mates, bring some glory to our school. even if its not in terms of trophies, let it be in the form of passion and determination.

use your time wisely, dont waste any. must always remember, a minute gone is a minutes lost forever!

2007-10-08T22:48:00.000+08:00

its only less than 2days left. unbelievably.last week at this time, i was complaining about how time crept by, how i wished it would just fly past. but now, just when it approaches the end, time just flies past!well, its time i start to plan my time,plan the stuff i want to do. or else i will end up where i am now. at the end of the road, looking back, to see nothing accomplished.perhaps nothing have changed. only the fact that an entire year has passed by.

2007-10-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

ok the 1st week of exams is finally over. its been tiring, i have to admit. but i know i cant slacken, the race is almost over, i have to persevere, just as it reaches its end.so far, i think i can clear the day/con camp thing, except higher chinese, which is quite worrying. paper 1 was great, but paper 2 was a terror. apart from that, im rather contented with the other subjects. but i've learnt much from this EOYs- that i've really started preparation too late. far too late. well, theres no time for regrets. so i have t make do with whatever time i have left. and hope for the best :)

post exams. just around the corner.exactly 5days. thats all i need to survive. and on the 5th day, certainly i wld heave a sigh of relief. for its finally over. but i seriously feel that i like wasted this year. i havent done much. in fact wasted this precious year. then again, life is all about making mistakes, then learning from them. its not how many mistakes you make, but how many you cant learn from. :P another philosiphish thing by me. :D

so c'mon lets all strive hard. post exams are sth we look forward to. and the only way to enjoy ourselves, is to do well for EOYs. so dun give up, dun stop working, instead, give off your best.

2007-09-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

wa. exams begins on mon. scary sia! 1st semester passed really slowly, and we all wondered when this year would be over. but after the june holidays, time just flew! and now, we are back at this familiar road- exams. its not totally negative, in fact i like exams, cause it marks the beginning of fun :) towards everything, there are always 2 perspectives, optimistic and pessimistic. and its totally up to us. whether we like it or not, we still have to go through it. so why not take the optimistic route, to enjoy everything we do, to treasure every moment of life?

Life is short, live it well. no time for regrets, so we shld really try to give our best towards everything. as time keeps passing so quickly, i cant help but think ahead. when my secondary school life is over, when i complete another phase of life. and as i think bout that, i cant help but look back at my primary school memories. and the biggest joy i have wld definitely be the time spent in synergy. others regard it as .. a lot of stuff la, but to me, its my favourite activity i ever went in primary school! think bout synergy, leads me to my ex cca mates. how we have all grown up over the years.. haha, my super close junior at that pt, is still only P5! haha. those days, innocent, troubleless boys, running around. friendship so pure, so sincere. free of backstabbing, free of jealousy. the perfect friendship. but it has to end. when i leave pri school! its quite sad just thinking about it. haha. im SUPPOSED to keep in contact, but its tough, really is!

well, guess there should only be 1 thing in my mind now, mugging! i just have to persevere for 13 more days, and then i can start doing anything, everything else! c'mon, lets all strive for the best possible results! :)

2007-09-27T21:49:00.000+08:00

another week is almost done. my exams begin next week!! scary. and i have to command tmr :( im so scared now la.. hope all goes well.. today was a nice day cause i finally collected my school jackets! after 6mths.. finally, wa my heart is thumping damn hard now. i dun wanna command tmr. i really dont. its so freaky!!!

anyway here are 2 pics of my beloved jackets :)

2007-09-24T17:22:00.000+08:00

19days..and i post again.its been a nice time since then.last fri, my iso, business at school, finally came to an end. we all joined cause we didnt have a choice. but now when its over, i wished it wld begin all over again.its been a gd 6mths of experience. in this last phase, my go slackened a lot, and now i kind of regret it. none of us really bothered about it, planning to take it as it comes. but at the end, we needed to put in effort, and due to the lack of effort from the start, we did badly.i dun mind losing, but im disappointed that we didnt put in our best, and only regret at the end. nevertheless, it was our class other team which won, so i dun mind too. these time spent in this iso were great, and i got a make new friends etc. a pity its all over.

time waits for no man...

exams are just around the corner, 1 week away in fact. cant wait for it to come and go :) studied 12hrs this weekend, hope to be able to complete revision well. slacked too much in term 3. gotta mug soon.. i'll try and update my blog more often.. till then, study hard!

2007-09-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

long time since i posted.its already middle of our 1 week holidays. thats sad. enjoyed my sleepover last night, fri going seoul garden, treat myself :) haha im rather silly, sick on mon but decided to go doctor on tues morning before meeting up with my friends for sleepover, and training today morning.end result = very sick! well, i cant neglect my friends, neither can i neglect me team :P selfless huh..haha others over self. but wad ngiam says is true, that its not possible.cause every breath deprieves others of oxygen, for self. retarded but true i gotta admit!

anyway, sleepover was fun, playing lots of xbox360, but chatting with friends is undoubtedly the best. in this present life style, how often do you stop to really have a nice chat with a friend. a heart to heart talk, without any distractions? almost never rite? in this present life style, how many of us experience true friendships? and what does friendships really mean to you guys? life is all about finding the meaning of your own life. but many end their lives still unsure of their purpose and meaning of life. so frankly, is there any use pursuing these meanings?

this holida is drawing to a close, and this year too. as we look back, we face our regrets. but its too late to change anything now. so we can only learn from our mistakes, and not do such foolish stuff in future. theres no time to stop and regret, so just treasure everything we have, and love our life :)

2007-08-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

bittersweet day once again.lost 5-0 in our friendly.im not that disappointed with the team as a whole,but then again, the goalkeeper is new.so it wldnt be fair to blame him.its ok people, we just pick ourselves up from defeats, and may we get stronger as we learn from experiences, together as 1 team.

i was quite happy towards the end.cause i met a player in that school whom i 1st got to know in sec1 end.havent seen him in a long while, thats the 1st thing he said to me.it felt kinda nice,as though i've met a long-lost friend.we did exchange tough tackles in the match,but we still walk out of it as friends.thats the real beauty of sports.friendship. we took a pic after the match too.but it was his idea and his cam,so i dont have it.such a pity?

after the match,we went to jp for lunch then my hse.thats all that really happened.

being bros really aint a simple task to handle.till now i think i only have 2 solid bros.the rest are just come and go.recently, i told myself im not gonna get anymore bros, but i broke that little promise to myself.and tonight, i guess im disappointed once again, regretting the decision i made.well well well, really dont know what to say now, dont know how to console myself, dont know whats the best route to take.

wonder whats my real purpose in life, really a question i cant answer, and no one has the answer too.. hope i dont have to continue living my life in doubt, not knowing what i really want...

2007-08-12T21:49:00.001+08:00

Singapore's 42! happy birthday to you. really love singapore, safe country, so thankful to be here :) no singapore,no home,no family,no friends.

this week has been perfect.just wanna turn back time!schoo ndp went well, then went jon ong hse. haha lots of stuff happened,but well nvm, thats top secret.hehe.

thurs to fri was spent at kheng hse! his hse is just so damn nice!very jap style..and just gives u a very relax feeling.his mum and little bro are all very nice.and his maids too! just love the 2 days spent there. bad times can go, but gd times remain as memories in our heart :) had a mini tournament too, guess we didnt play too well, and only have ourselves to blame regarding results. we had our chances, but simply didnt take them. its my fault too, cause i cldnt remain clam and lead the team. well, lesson learnt, experiences gained.

sat was my little niece 1 mth old.very fun.carried her for the 1st time.she smile at me, so freaking cute la.and so many pple come and see the little princess.haha super duper cute la.few more mths, then can interact. now everyday eat sleep. haha but still cute though.

ok time to sleep, hope it will be another perfect week..

2007-08-04T22:11:00.001+08:00

a terrible week.that describes all. sec school is just so complicated.if you think school work is bad, person to person relations is far worse.pple are as innocent as in pri school, trust is lost, loyalty is gone. whats left? jealousy, sabotaging. jokes condemned, emotional sensitivity emphasized.looking back, how i wished i treasure pri school life more, how i could stay and never grow up.happily times, simple games and fun brought smiles to us. now only seeing pain on others will we smile.what a world this is!

well, hate this week.perspective of life keeps changing.1 question will answer all probs.what is the meaning of life?im glad this week is over, hope it will never repeat itself.a week of fun an friendship is ahead of me, unless things take a drastic change. but now i got a big qn for myself. who are my true friends? who can answer that, i really wonder.

my life seems screwed now. wonder what my current priorities are, and whether its appropraite. i seem too concerned with soccer, it no longer is just a cca to me, but sth that means so much to me.but we lost our tcher in charge this week.really sad, he did so much to bring us to where we are. i agree we arent at the top challenging for honours, but im really proud to be in this team, after we have progressed together.i've learnt a lot bout it, and the fact that results dont mean that much after all!i only have bout 1 yr left to do anything, anything at all..

but now i have to decide whether its worth it putting so much effort into soccer cause whatever i do wont benefit my team, but my juniors. bad experiences, all i can say. trust me, its difficult to care bout juniors, tough and it really makes u think whether its worth it..

well, life is short, treasure it. if there are unhappy things bothering you, try and let go.theres no point bottling things up, and being filled with hatred, repay evil with good, and be proud of urself, i know its tough, but we gotta try.

2007-07-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

ok,my long awaited birthday celebration is over again..today was really a sad+happy day.initially i was very upset.cause a'div pple asked me go for their friendly etc, so i turned up, only to see a lot of players,not even in team, and doubt will enter.so i didnt start,insulted,angry.2nd half never sub on,super angry.decided that enough time was wasted, so i left to bathe,with those who were going my hse from there,jonong,jonkheng,roo,kevin.following which,just left school with them.

went to jurong pt for lunch,then proceeded back home,played soccer then had bbq,by then,jarrell,marc and zach had joined us.

had lots of fun,and some things i never imagined people wld do really did it! haha but well, i really had a damn good time today.no idea how my birthday could be improved!

but i realised stuff.like there is this magical feeling when u are with all your gd friends together at once.initially i was upset in the morning, but have to admit,with the presence of my friends, this upset and bad feeling just disappeared like that!amazing huh?and i just enjoyed every moment as the minutes ticked by.such memories,although not captured by the camera, but they certainly are stuck in my mind!where its most important.

yea the other thing is i realised ive change,perhaps with maturity i guess.in the past, what i looked forward to most for bdaes is present.but now, presents lost their meanings to me.i take it as a protocol,maybe an extra thing, but wad i treasure most is the company and friendships i have.these parties just show me how i should treasure all i have, and just give thanks for all the wonderful things.indeed i am grateful!

haha i also feel rather guilty,lost in which who my real gd friends are.im close to all those who came today.but my classmates are really nice to me too. at times i feel im not gd enough a friend to them, only joking with them, teasing them etc.never really being concerned bout them, as i am to all my "bros". i am having the best of both worlds,but im not treating everyone fairly!

ok so i really had an enjoyable birthday party, and now as the minuts of my real birthday tick by, i count how many pple wish me happy birthday!haha maybe its a cheap thrill, but these are the little pleasures in life we really must treasure!

so goodnight people, may the remaining part of the year just keep getting better!

2007-07-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

tmr is week2 of the term.how time flies.but no regrets.enjoyed my holidays a lot.haha made a really good friend during the holidays too.but such a pity, not my school, means we probably will have problems maintaining this friendship. but im happy that i found such a friend, and spent such great times.. so what more should i ask for?

lost and made friends.friendships can be salvaged.so fortunate i managed to do so in time. well, friendships cant be an equal thing. one party certainly wld have to contribute more than the other. so if u think you really want that friendship, then dont be so calculative. doesnt matter if you have to contribute more. what matters most is that both parties are happy! thats the logic i discovered, and hopefully, it will help me. watched fantastic 4 and transformers both not bad. and both really showed the importance of team work, how certain things are simply impossible to be accomplished alone.enjoyed transformers today, with roo and kev, after sleepover last night.haha met marc and his friends there, watched the movie tgt.lucky to get seats btween them! the movie catch phrase was sth bout "no sacrifices, no success" which really makes sense.in our friendships and everything in life! following the movie, we met up with bertrand and jon ong for sakae lunch! late lunch but enjoyable!

so life has been great for me, how about you all out there?

2007-06-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

holidays are almost over. as time passes, i feel friendship is such a fragile thing. but what can i really do to prevent it from shattering? haha such a unpredictable world this is..i just bcame friend friend with the person i hated few days back, but in turn, i seem to get so darn pissed with the person i was close to few days back. the feeling just sucks la huh.

"bros" just treat the other like dogs. how true is this? well, guess its better not to take friendships with the younger ones seriously. somehow, i feel friendship means nothing to them, only thing they bother bout is themselves. why must people become more selfish? they expect so much, and dont contribute. the feeling of having such friends really just pisses you off. you bother so much, but it seems to be that they dont bother bout you. making use of you, making you wait like a fool. what more do you wanna do before you finally tell me that you actually dont care bout this friendship?

2007-06-12T22:09:00.000+08:00

who are my real true friends?i've discovered so much this holidays, not something i want, but something i cant deny. as each min tick by, i look back by the weeks. what i had in the past = nothing now. what i had all the while but never treasured, appears to be the jems and jewels i had in my life. choices i had, i chose wrongly. such a pity i cant turn the clock back.

why is it possible that people change so much,so fast? or is it because i always looked only at the good side, and thought i could change the bad. you replied me with a huge "fat hope" and i wonder if i should thank you for that practical wake up call? after what you have been doing to me, i just have this desire to backstab you, and i know that will mean a lot to you. not the trust you lose in me, but the trust others lose in you. but i wont do that, i'll just tell you that of today, we are friends no more. it meant a lot to me, but now that it means nothing to you, same for me. bros of the past. strangers of the present.

what are your true friends? who are your true friends? the more you treasure things, the harder it is to hold of to them. the more you desire for things, the more you grab the wrong stuff. such is the contradictions on earth.

i look back at the past emails you sent me, the past smses i received from you. is my heart laughing or crying? its probably both. laughing at how these all seemed so real. crying that i got fooled by it. wish it was just an illusion. an angel sent to wake me up.

in my life, i have such great friends who always talked to me, who are there to chat to when i need them. but what do i do? avoid them, not treasure them. instead, i care so much for you, my "bro". its just impossible how this world goes. seriously, when can i find my best friend, one that i would never ever be fooled by?

i myself dont know if i want you to read this, but i know i really wonder how you would feel upon reading this. or maybe you just wont care.

2007-06-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

no longer bros, whats left is bittersweet memories. haha totally agree that we always take things for granted. when we were bros, i was always suaning you, teasing you etc. you claim that i did make life nicer for you, but sometimes i really wonder if i did. well so maybe its time we stop being bros. haha its quite sad though, but sometimes regret is all you can have. nevermind, stop looking back, and instead look to the present and future.

actually im quite happy la, you gave me another wake up call. and a time whereby i could really stop and reflect. thanks for everything, really memories money cant buy, and these are probably little things we live for. at least no we are friends. but i really hope you won get into bad company and become vulgar and ya..doesnt matter la, life is full of learning.

ok time to be practical. concentrate on my soccer and academics. tournament next year, hope i can bring glory to the school. even if its not results, i hope the never dying fighting spirit will burn in our hearts, and that we fight till the final whistle, to prove our worth. this is the common belief i really need to instill in my team.

hehe i finally went gym on fri.1st this holiday.2nd wld be with danielwong at bishan gym on tues.that wil be better cause he can teach me and stuff.haha tough persistent training till tournament man!then i'll concentrate on academics for o lvls. wow its freaky how sec school is gonna end so soon. well sad sad sad. but the time will come when we all have to move on. and hope we leave deep footprints in the hearts of others. and our souls will carry on in their hearts...

2007-06-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

holidays almost halfway through.this aint a sweet 1 for me though, instead is a bitter 1.but at least it finally opens my eyes.ha all those bro here bro there,complete crap.words simply have no meaning unless they are true. and now you have just proven to me how people can be fooled so easily by words.looking back, i really think im nothing more than a fool- to get fooled by you guys.like.. thanks so much lor. at least now i'll stop wasting my time and concern. really like my "bros" of last yr. ryan soh n zach. those are great ones whom are still my bros till now.this years' are nth but a complete joke.cant even last 1/2 a yr.

sec school is where you find the best friends in your life.thats all -friends. so dont try to make bros, do nothing but deceive yourself. but i really cant believe i so dumb. so stupid.you claim that you are closer to me than blah blah. but you can sleepover with him for 4night,wa so happy no complaints,nothing at all.even just two of you can leave u so contented.tmr we have sleepover.just one night.the only time this holiday. you say you are tired and all ur crap. haha closer to me? i believe you..i trust you.. thats as true as your words are.

egoistic,proud,arrogant.. everything without substance. you really think you are good? you really think you will go far? you really think you will get captaincy.you can get it for all i care.lucky u will never play in the same div as me.and lucky i hav a say in deciding my team.im thankful for that.

nvm,at least the truth is out for me.and i wont get fooled anymore.now my holidays finally begins.without my so called bros... :)

2007-05-30T15:34:00.000+08:00

muhaha just found a cool quiz. n im bored! so...
Name out one friend whose name begins with each alphabet.

[A]- Alan
[B]- Bertrand
[C]- Calvin
[D]- Derek
[E]- Ervin
[F]- Friedrich
[G]- Gab Loke
[H]- Hadrain
[I]- Isaiah
[J]- JonOng
[K]- Kevin
[L]- Leighland
[M]- Mark
[N]- Nehemiah
[O]-
[P]- Preston
[Q]-
[R]- RyanSoh
[S]- Scott
[T]- Trevor
[U]-
[V]-
[W]- Wei Sheng
[X]- XunWei
[Y]- Yuan Wei
[Z]- Zachary
2. How many siblings A has? Name them. i have no idea....
3. What does B SMS you about? Anything,Everything?? :)
4. What is C's nickname? Nerd!
5. How did you get to know D? Classmates in Pri School
6. How despo is E? Not very?
7. How much older/younger is F than you? Same age
8. Name 3 of G's best friends. Not very sure. ooh i know 1! JON ONG. muahaha :P
9. Does H knows I? Schoolmates
10. What happens if J suddenly turns into your enemy? that'll be sad.. =(
11. Under what condition will K & L gets married? if they are gay? LOL
12. How many people do you know with M's name? 2?
13. Do you enjoy talking on the phone with N? sometimes, talking rubbish bout anything under the sun.. thats fun right?
14. Do you think O knows P?
15. How geeky is Q?
16. Is R very popular? not sure, but in cca, DEFINATELY!
18. Is T a very random person? nope
19. How are U & V related?
20. Do you take W as anything else other than a friend? sjab faction i/c counted?
21. When is the last time u met up with X? long ago..
22. Are Y & Z enemies? no..
23. Of A to Z, which one do u love the most and will give <3s? hmmm.....
24. Will you betray any of them? not at the moment.
25. Have u loved and confessed to any one in A to Z? all guys! NO!
26. Have you tagged A to Z informing them that they have to take this quiz too? too lazy..

2007-05-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

its been a while since i blogged!but i've been enjoying my time, though im kinda sick, coughing like crazy.finally going to the doctor tmr, hope it'll recover soon, but i going tuition tmr, thats sad!fri had business@school presentation, which went really well! and that marked the beginning of my holidays! so yayy!!! haha

sat was great.started with soccer U-17 at NUS High School.started poorly.but ended on the high.we really need sth to wake us up,and have the determination and it came,and we then started to give all we've got.!here are some pics!
1st and foremost, my teacher.nice guy, took all these pics. thanks!
2nd: my team that fateful sat...3rd... in between games..just slacking by the side...4th: the natural side of us!! all cheerful and crazy :)5th: last but not least, the hottest pic.lol jkjk!!
after that went to cine for POTC3.nice show.wld be better if i watched 1 & 2.some part so emo can cry la.hehe.next came back home for bbq.me,bert,jon,ryanchang,kenneth,roo,kevin,daniel.that was just as good.nice time spent near a fire just talking and keeping in touch.thats the biggest part of holidays dont you agree?=)

today was nice too.met up with jon and bert at jp, then came my hse watch just follow law,play xbox, play soccer.

holidays rocks so far.just so afraid i dont make use of it well, it all goes to waste and i simply regret when school reopends. but by then.... its all too late. =(

2007-05-17T21:11:00.002+08:00

well, if one gets stuff too easily, would they take it for granted? do we only treasure things if we have to fight hard for them? people appear n disappear from ur lives, but friends leave footsteps in ur life. but how do you really define a friend. finding playmates, acquantainces is simple.but finding a true friend who really understand you, trust you, stay with you in all times of trouble.now thats close to impossible.

today was really a sad 1.sadder as the time passes..cant believe it.you actually got so mad over the jacket thing.if it came from others, i wont care.but its from you.would you be happier if i dont bother? its simple. doing it for my b div is my responsibility, not for you guys.if i do it for u, its a priviledge.then again, think bout it, would u be grateful? even to the smallest extent?

when u are so close to a person.it will hurt doubly when u get doubted by him. after so much i've done, i come to realise maybe it counts for nothing. initially i found u to be mature. now worse. maybe im the 1 causing all these probs. wonder why i even started caring in the 1st place. ok so after months of bonding, our friendship is almost torn apart.just by a jacket. now i know how much our friendship means to you. thanks for letting me know. at least now im no longer in an illusion created by you.

2007-05-17T21:11:00.001+08:00

post exams activities.supposed to be the most enjoyable time, but not for me.life is boring these days.com games,boring.all i have is friends.thats a great thing, only when u go out,other than that, stuck at home, no diff from jail, besides msn.
ok b div is finally taking shape.now with our coordinated jersey and maybe jacket.its a whole new look.but i know i cant do it all on my own.getting the sec 1s tgt bonding with the rest aint a simple task.

2007-05-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

fighting spirit + determination really gives you unexpected results! my geper class won interclass soccer! my target from the start was not to get thrashed, and this happened.
semis were won through penalties.so happy, beat the sports class!finals was great! we won 3-0.and i scored a wonder goal.so nice, from 2/3 of the field.hot shot.
but this competition really showed me tat if we are willing to work, nth is impossible.so im really gonna work hard and bring glory to school next yr. if im willing to work, wads beyond me?

2007-05-12T23:58:00.002+08:00

today is a bittersweet day.school was great on the whole, but i was upset once i stepped into my home. interclass soccer was better than expected, win 1 draw 1, into the semis on thurs.training went well, i played well too.and after training, received many compliments that really made me happy, reassuring me that hard work really pays off!but all good things have to come to an end.

once i came home, my mum started "tormenting" me mentally.after dinner and bath, it was worse.its a simple thing... is playing and slacking 4days after exams over normal and a right thing? my mum doesnt believe so. she starts passing sarcastic remarks like "wa, everyday i see you playing". but exam period, i study so hard, i never hear her saying "wa, everyday see you studying" its really freaking pissing la huh. that aint enough.i told her i was gonna do my project today. she dont trust me, i finish doing, she see me chatting.then i show her wad i did, somemore got the web i created.then she starts showing how not happy she is.its like totally wad la. after exams i still bother do work.thats not enough?what more do you want la!
the worst thing is that this shows, my mum doesnt even trust me.so crap, wad have i dont not to deserve ur trust?cant believe even my friends trust me more.pple are always discussing bout students being closer to friends than parents.but hav parents actually looked at themselves? instead of always blaming their kid?we may be much younger, but we have feelings too.we get screwed for being rude n stuff, but u dun even get any blame for hurting ur kids.
pple claim that homes are places filled with love and warmth. thats seems like total crap now.frankly, im happier when im with my friends in school.
the diff btween humans and robots are the presence of heart and brain.so an unfeeling human is nth more than a robot.i like to care bout pple, but when such things happen, who really cares bout you?hmmm life seems to be getting so one-sided nowadays.but that aint gonna stop me from being nice and caring to pple.cause i have purposes in life.and im not gonna live a life just to study and earn money.well, hope my home can get "filled with love and warmth" soon...

2007-05-12T23:58:00.001+08:00

exams are finally over.FINALLY freedom comes..
ytd rocks.wanna relive it again n again.after school went to the CAGE! played against jon ong's team.lol it was fun la.but kinda sucked in the later part cause i got kneed in my calf,kenna dead leg then cramps.arghh..thats the only sad thing that happened there.muahaha think i master my outside foot long shot liao.hehe the more techniques i pick up, the more variation there will be for my game next year!
later we went to kevin hse where we played com,ps2 and just chilled and then went great world for dinner and movie.muahaha.purposely watched there n so late cause thats when jon went to watch spiderman 3 with his family.hehe go scare him :) but he pig la kept running away.but the movie was nice.initially it seemed rather draggy and stuff can sleep but towards the end, you just cant help but get engrossed in the movie.the last part so darn sad la, when the goblin's son died to shield spiderman.lol can cry la, but sit beside danielwong,his face makes ur tears get stuck in ur eyes :P
and s usual.spiderman movies all come with morales.this 1 wasnt as clear cut.but its bout making choices.which really makes a lot of sense.

2007-05-03T20:45:00.001+08:00

chem is over too!great.now left 1 solid week.next 2 days gotta study hard, must get high average!
today was nice..after exams,few of my friends came to my hse slack a while,play soccer then eat pizza hut lunch.so nice,but personal pan so small :( but put cheese very nice..shit la today ate like a pig..came home drank campbell soup for fun..then slack n slack n slack. tmr then start mugging...
wa im quite happy today.so much better than ytd.ytd upset cause of someone, then attitude jon too.haha today so friendly with everyone,as in really everyone.including the someone who upset me n jon!
see,aint life so much nicer this way?you just open up, n chat.we'll understand each other better this way.friendship is a 2-way thing, not 1-sided.bros too,well the elder 1 obviously care more, but the younger 1 also must put in effort to maintain the "broship" mah..but nevertheless, im happy today,really happy.
hope things can carry on like that,and may you never turn for the worse, regardless of the bad influence that surrounds you.for you,i be there, the pillar of strength,never to be uprooted..... hehe sounds good huh :P :)

2007-05-03T20:45:00.000+08:00

mid-exams period now, n im still blogging.1st day was great.today kinda sucked la.eng paper 1 n ss ytd was rather gd.today eng paper2 not too bad.but e maths paper 1 sucked.it sucks cause pple told me no need bring calculatorm but in the end need.so lost some marks here n there.i did all except 1 part of a qn.but answers seem rather diff from my friends.rather worrying lor.hoped it wont be too bad.then my parents come attitude me.say must be ytd never study hard enough.y neva kiasu bring calculator.super pissing.
im also quite upset la.y the hell do i care so much for so many pple.sometimes i shld just stop bothering.who am i?just a normal teen, not 1 able to care bout so many pple.whats more, care aint always appreciated.here i am caring so much bout you, and there u are not even giving a damn.ok la, if it pleases you, i just forget about it lor.dun care bout wad school you are in, dont care bout how pple influence you.just hav the heck care attitude.it was a mistake meeting you.a bigger mistake caring so much.this sucks and i hate it.wasted care n concern!

2007-04-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

this week sucks.worst in my life.1st phone lcd screen crack.2nd ez link card spoil!arghh.repair cost my dad $128.2 weeks old only.so he freaking pissed.nokia pple say this model very fragile.so end up i think i have to exchange phone with my mum.cant use my beloved phone.
was freaking angry.cause i know its my friend make spoil 1.but didnt wanna sabo.then i tell him he make spoil,he dont want pay nvm,he say wad i got no proof that he spoilt it,no evidence n stuff.so ass la.he no phone i always lend him.well, the world is made up of all sorts of pple,and theres no point being angry.
received this sweet email.morale being every second spent being sad is 60sec of happiness lost forever.this is real true.so im gonna live my life to the fullest.like the email says "take too many photos, laugh too much,love like u have never been hurt before".this is certainly the inspiration im gonna live by for quite some time now!
today friendly versus YCKPS was fun.they may be pri school but they own.mon in national finals.i had to form team:Kev,me,pres,derek,kim,beau,gab,aloy,jon and 2 pri school kids joined us.we won 5-0.haha last yr we drew with them.good improvement.sadly i not on score sheet.beaurhys got 2,jon 1,derek 1 and another dude last 1.hehe i assisted 3/5 goals.and i had a darn nice shot.got ball at halfway line.pushed up a few steps.saw keeper so far off the line.decided to take a long shot.wa damn hot.i tot was going in top right corner.but so unlucky.hit the crossbar!hahahaha but im satisfied with it la huh..
hope i will keep improving.and my ego stays low..lol!muznt be a jon ong :P

2007-04-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

monday tmr again.cool man, last week of studies b4 mid years.cant wait for mid years. once exams starts, the days pass like super fast!and once exams is over..well, no need to elaborate bout that la huh?!haha

like the song "heart of worship". its lyrics make sense! like when the music fades away, all is stripped away" thats like so true la.during chapel, sing songs then i so enthu bout christianity, like keep telling myself cant be so "unholy". but once singing is over, its so diff to keep my eyes open. after i step out of the audi, the unchristianlike of me comes out.how sad la!

yea.been really having this goal.to be able to play hard for the school in front of supporters.but that is really too hard of us, soccer players to ask for.no gold, no supporters.thats life for people right.sad but true.sometimes it makes me really upset.i agree that we arent able to bring in the medals, but that does not mean we arent putting in our heart n soul right.its like after the match,u fight so hard, but still unable to win.already sad, u look around, to see ur teammates n no one else.depressing but seems like i just have to accept this practical world!

2007-04-18T20:27:00.000+08:00

finally, some time to relax..
this week, went to 2 finals to support, rugby n softball, both won golds.not bad la, think the players in both matches really did put in their best.thats why i love team sports, see the team spirit, when softballers win today, they sang the school anthem holding so tight to school flag, some teared too..can tell how much effort they put in and how much this means to them.

seeing the great support the prefects give by cheering n just the school's presence make me wonder, when can i ever be the 1 in the pitch, fighting to bring glory to the school?the atmosphere is just so nice la.but in team sports, 1 enthu person wont make much diff.but its really tough to inspire the team to be committed n stuff cause even i myself find training to be getting more n more boring.but i wont stop training hard regardless of wad happens cause i know putting my best really means a lot to me.but well, what i can do is limited.

ok so for soccer pple reading, please train hard, and seriously to you all sec 1s, you should lose your ego, believe it or not, for your own good....

2007-04-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

long time since i posted..this week so so la..but today read bout friendships during chinese tuition.it really made a lot of sense.talked bout whether more friends better or less better. my teacher and i share a common view to it.we feel that less is better..
most people step into our lives and just go like that.that aint wad i call friends.wad my tcher says is true.tat most friends are like playmates.have fun together, after that we are like strangers.but true friends are those who u see come closer to you when u are in trouble,and not following the rest to shoo far away.
then how about bros.shouldnt it be even closer.more than just being there when needed?or are bros there just to take advantage of each other and simply for gains.once you start thinking of gains u can get from others, they are no longer your friends.hope and wish all my bros are true bros.. otherwise, its tragic. :(

2007-04-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

tell me this is hot man. saw the F10 version in IMM.so mesmerised by it.have been dreaming bout it since then.cant afford this F50 for sure. either F10 or F30.probably F10.but not sure if i wanna invest.but its so hot!!!

2007-04-08T21:47:00.000+08:00

arghh, mon again.sian but happy for some reasons.. hmmmm :)
had sleepover this weekend to celebrate kevin bdae.enjoyed it, though it wld be better if peanut cld come. so sad his mum last min dont allow.we were so happy when they gave permission initially but well, sometimes things just dont go our way. it was still kinda fun ,but its was just sth lacking without him!slept super late, was watching funny soccer vids on youtube with roo n jon. laugh like siao la super funny, yet kevin n justin cld still sleep with our laughter. so funny.

the day was kinda fun la. joke joke, played mini soccer.i owned.as usual. lol too ego la me, but still lose to jon haha! ate pepper lunch, initially wasnt for the idea but when i ate. yummy.was it the food or the company? haha!

and i got my new phone! 6288.black. its the new white.cant remember where i saw this.its hot.darn nice!today bought a 2gb mini sd card for it somemore. so its perfect now!

today went to IMM shop with my family.quite nice la.then came home to study!

2007-04-01T09:06:00.000+08:00

life this week passes rather fast, without studying..learnt new stuff like ice skating, game making and more, really enjoyed myself this week!sjab on fri was rather slack too. just sit in lecture theatre till 4 plus, listening to tcher talk bout flag day and joking with friends then dismissed already.

however, flag day wasnt all good.in fact i was rather disappointed, with myself and my bro.could'nt believe i could only collect half a tin despite my efforts.well i can say we didnt have a good location or whatsoever, but i think this year i didnt go all out unlike last year.mayb i was rather discouraged by the many people who did not donate after i asked.then i was super disappointed with my bro.done so much to and for him, but didnt even manage to get simple trust. how could he possibly choose to take the wrong path when he himself knew it was wrong.knowing me so well, i certainly expected him to follow me and trust me but he didnt.he is really lucky they wont allowed to do what they wanted or else now he wouldnt even be able to sleep in peace.

sometimes we all do take wrong paths, but at the end of these are consequences.so we really must consider these consequences before making decisions, will these consequences just be too tough for us?and whether it is worthwhile is another thing to consider.lucky this time they didnt do anything bad.hope he learnt his lesson, if he does then im fine with it.. otherwise, regret is all he is walking towards..

2007-03-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

wa so long neva blog. this week owns la!GEP camp tues to fri. went ice skating during school hours as elective too.super fun.fall down then clothes wet, but well, its worth it! many bruises too, but doesnt matter.

soccer is going well for me too.tues played super well, as last man.quite good considering i gave up that position ages ago. but coach's bro, our "2nd" coach still doesnt know.everytime ask me play defender, sometimes can really be pissing, but nvm, at least i still can play both positions. so happy, my goal kick further and nicer liao!coach say my kicking technique good, hav to do weights on legs to improve kicking.finally man, after so long.

hehe got a fan club now!sec 1 soccer dudes.lol.quite funny la, but shall not elaborate. hahahaha

school life have been great!getting to know my teachers better and stuff.yup so all in all im really happy with my life.cant get any better with my 2 sec1 bros!haha :)

2007-03-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

this week has been tiring, today marks the end of a hectic school week. just finished business @ school presentation earlier on. last few nights worked really hard till late just to complete our powerpoint.lucky it went quite well so our hard work paid off. but this time we mustnt wait till last min again!

life is quite nice now la. got a lot of good friends, close friends and stuff. haha enjoying life now. tmr man utd cup. quite unhappy with the attitude of some team mates, but nothing i can do. just give my best shot, play to the best of my ability and hope fore the best!

2007-03-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

k 1 final post for tonight. just this big question that is circulating in my mind. what exactly is a elder bro? issit just someone who is called kor and thats all? or is it just someone close who is senior in age? i really dont have the answer to this. but what is a elder bro who cant do anything for the younger 1. then wads the point of being an elder bro? i really dont understand. mayb i underestimate this "kor".

with great power comes great responsibilities.

this is one phrase i can never forget. and if i aint worthy to be your bro, what shld i do? carry on or not? its really a trouble. now, as i indulge in christian music, i really ponder over such qns..how god has sacrificed so much, humans certainly are never capable of them.

why do you still wanna be my younger bro? is there a point seriously? i aint worthy or fit to be your bro.think about it, what exactly have i done for you? what would your life be without me? i really think there wont be much of a difference. some things just cant be forced and i think we are trying too hard. just too hard. everything seems so fake.its not natural. you told me before that all these have to come naturally and now i pose the question to you. am i being your bro something natural or something you are forcing yourself to accept? its your life so please think for yourself and consider whether its worth continuing to be bros k. perhaps it was just total wishful thinking on both our parts from the start. its still not too late. so decide now before it is too late......

2007-03-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

ytd night i had sleepover at kevin hse.only kevin, roo, peanut and i. initially i thought it wldnt be fun cause so few of us but i was wrong.it was great. went to queensway, bought my new soccer ball another champion league ball. then went over. slept very late n i got to know peanut a lot better. all these sleepovers then can see how a person behave. im not saying it in a bad way la. the rest wld agree with me he really behaves like a little kid! obssessed with star wars and lego stuff. really like my bro. go orchard he also run here run there dont care how people look at him 1.

sometimes i really wished i had younger siblings..but then again, if all these "bros" were my realy bros, mayb i wld be like majority of others and not treasure them so well, i trust god's decision for us to meet like that. and i must say he sticks to me just like a little bro would.roo was quite shocked by the way he addressed me and everything too. its just seemed to natural and real. dont know la but i really enjoyed this sleepover a lot. if only i could turn the clock back by 24 hrs...

nvm study hard dudes. in 10 weeks time, june holidays will come and there we will be, all together again. here i pray that these friendships i forge will not be a short sweet sensation, but a lifelong sweet feeling, one that i can count on when im sad, when im happy, and simply anytime anywhere, just like how i can count on you god.this truly seems like wishful thinking but i believe through you all things are possible.so lord, please bless these friendships i forged.may i be able to bring joy to all my friends, my loved ones and not cause sadness, or anything unpleasant. and here lord i really thank you for all that you have done. amen.

2007-03-16T22:58:00.000+08:00

k camp is finally over. the annual camp.the last 1 i wld hav to suffer. thats a good thing. but i must say there are positives to be taken from the camp as well. must say i got to know my faction people better.after all, we did suffer together. great pains would definitely forge friendships, otherwise this camp wld be a total failure.i got to know my seniors better too.and i must say i sort of enjoyed this camp.cause i did quite well in it too. learnt a lot of first aid and drill too. stand by bunk was bad, with 400 to 500 push up punishment.. but well, we all survived through it, so look to a better future. actually these camps help us to enjoy life more too. so im satisfied.i really am.

2007-03-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

k tmr lst day of freedom b4 my march camp.arghh.march camp sian la.i wldnt be going if not for the nice seniors.

today was quite gd.went training then to mgs for some church soccer thing.pierson invited us to go.5vs5. we played really hard with jon ong probably being our star player.hot prospect man!he our top and only scorer.3 goals in 5 matches.semi we won by penalty shootout.pierson being the star.our penalty takers were leighland, me and pierson, pierson also being keeper.he made a darn nice save, top corner shot.we won 1-0 with pierson being the only scorer.

finals we played really hard but lost 2-0 in penalties.pierson was already injured thats why let in.but nvm all of us had a part to play.i was really upset after we lost cause my penalties both never go in.both hit the left post.all good shots but its just not my day.i sad dc try to cheer me up.if it was genuine, thats good.but make me feel like an asshole.i didnt even treat him very well but he so nice to me...haix..ooh 1 day over. 4 more to go before freedom for most of us. from uyo camp.haha...

2007-03-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

term 1 is officially over. monday would be the annual march camp.so traumatic.i dont know what i dislike bout the camp.actually it aint that bad.just that i know i'll kenna camp i/c and i dun like that. so sad. bb camp is tmr till mon. my camp is mon till wed.means i cant even chat to you for 5 days.so sad. 5 days is actually quite long not to chat of very good friends!

hehe being called korkor is a really nice thing!its always being taken for granted and bros always take their younger siblings for granted.but 1 day if your siblings just disappear from your life, how wld you actually feel?id my "didi"s do disappear from my life, i will tell you i will be sad. very sad.these are people who are just so impt to me, at times when u really feel down, who will be there for you? these people close to your heart. so here i am trying to tell all elder bros and sis to just love your younger siblings. take care of them ,shower them with love and u will be happy to see them grow up so happily.

but i think i just hurt dc feelings.really dunno what to do bout him. theres just this sth that cause me not to be able to treat him as i treat my bros.. but till i discover this prob..nothing can be resolved..

2007-03-07T22:17:00.000+08:00

long time since i blogged.been real busy with hw, tests and everything. stuff are finally going into place, like everything. my studies slowly better liao. but my study mood not in yet, so im only like average in class.. after march holidays i start studying liao, next time 30% must aim for a 78% average as usual. then shld be within a safe zone..

soccer is also going well. im so happy, ytd and today both played really well. finally mastered my slicing technique.so goo for goal kicks, long balls, free kicks, corners. hope my hard work will pay off la. hopefully i set-piece taker next year.shldnt be a prob at this rate :) ytd my long balls start all the attacks. then my free kick assisted javier's header goal. today my corner assisted daniels' header. hehe all inch perfect crosses! but must still train hard. many more aspects of my game can be improved..

lol today made a new sec1 soccer dude friend. mr rich kid. LOL! hahahahah k i shall stop my rumours spreadin. actually its fact spreading but ya nvm..quite a nice dude, like a replica of jon ong. these pple really make me realise that i dun hav to waste my time always trying to pacify some pple. instead these friendships are much easier to maintain!

2007-02-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

today was fun! started with pd for swim meet.i was quite slack was sitting in the stands, making sure all the spectators were fine.lol so i was just having a nice long chat with my sec 1 juniors!
then i went for training,which went rather well. but i still can control my kicking as well as when barefooted.thats really frustrating.but nvm my kicking is improving by quite a lot. today jon had quite a gd training too.played quite well.no need to say preston la, he never has a bad game i must say.
then i went to lunch at jacks place with my family.so nicee.. i ate the steak with chicken meal.their soup garlick bread and baked potato is so freaking good.sour cream and bacon bits!
after which we went to my aunt hse.very fun.eat a lot of junk food and played cards. haha yay i won today! got some very vute little cousins, not so direct 1, so only see them like once or twice a year.but they are really cute!

ok cny is like almost totally over.what a sad feeling...

2007-02-23T21:49:00.000+08:00

alright week is over.short but tiring i must say. nothing much happened in this 2 days.nothing really bad but good ok la.jon la make me addicted to playing soccer with him during recess..but dc keep saying im evil. lol juniors are cute but not really easy to understand. and once there is miscommunication, probs crop up and things turn bad..thats why now im ery careful with whatever i do..

think its better to log out when i play games.just now playing dc try tok to me for long while i never reply then he think i ignoring him.lol think he act pissed only la, everytime liddat 1. but nvm la doesnt matter...

just read a really nice christian email which really make a lot of sense.we are able to do nasty things so easily but how much consideration do we actually put in b4 we do sth nice, just by being concerned and spreading love? we must really sort out priorities in life or we probably wont ever go far...

2007-02-21T22:49:00.000+08:00

today rocks!after sleepover..
morning went to acsp, visited my ex-teachers, mdm lee was really elated to see us.see we can bring joy to teachers so easily.just go and say hi.then we played soccer for 1 hr plus also. and i met up with ryan and rhys.poorthing ryan ,kenna scratched by his glasses, made 2 marks on his previously flawless face..
then went to justin old hse play touch american football as usual. it was quite fun but we didnt last long, so tired...due the the sun.
then i went to seoul garden at taka with kevin and gabriel.so nice, we stayed for the longest time in there. 12.50 to 4.00. thats 3 plus hrs! and we ate non stop. except waiting for the food to cook.i ate a lot of prawns while gab ate alot of meat,especially beef.
we ate a lot of ice cream too, and through lunch i got to know gab a lot better,haha..he is sick in the mind. lol jk la.. on the way to taka we met mark.i wonder who had telepathy with him man. *g-a-b-r-i-e-l* . lol...
oh and today is good.strengthened friendship another dude. haha impt person at this point of time in my life!

LIFE ROCKS!

2007-02-21T01:59:00.000+08:00

ok CNY is officially over here in singapore.back to school and work for most..this CNY has been rather fun,but my sis,mum and i lost quite a lot in our card games.but well,as my mum says,its just once a year so nvm..

zzz at kevin hse now, tmr go acs(p) visit our ex-teachers..and friends in pri school like ryan and rhys.today didnt really do much except for playing we9 and chatting on msn. not many people, just kevin ryan justin and i.haha played a fool with someone just know.it was quite funny yet evil la. lucky he is an understanding and nice boy haha so not offended.but through this mini "game",i got to see the other side of him, the softer side.never judge a book by its cover.he may seem really tough on the outside but i aassure you, in the inside,he is actually a soft nice person, who really treasures friendships so much,just so much.maybe i shldnt have played such an evil game with him.it took much time and effort to be so close and him being able to confide in me,but i let it go just like that.but like i said,good thing he is nice!haha must treasure such friends.not easy to find in the present world.being 2 yrs younger then me, the time we have in the same school ain't long so all i can do is make the most of these 1 plus remainding year.haha be a good bro to lead and guide him to actually develop in a good way, and avoid mistakes i have made in the past.

don't be afraid to make mistakes,cause its through mistakes that we truly learn. and while we may have abyndance of materialistic stuff, true joy actually comes from the warmth from our family friends and loved ones.so here i am to urge everyone of us to treasure our family and friends, and not wait till the moment we have to part.when that time comes, we should just rejoice for the wonderful memories left behind...

2007-02-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

ok the 1st day of chinese new year is over.nothing much happened.collect angbao, wear new clothes, chat to relatives i see once in a long while and see small kids as more and more are borned each year.one by one they grow up and as we see them, we wonder how great it would be if we could be in their place,living with no worries, getting all we wanted simply by wailing.rather easy life aint it?

but 1 thing they lack is the friendship we have with our best friends.and i feel this special relationship is better than being able to get all the materialistic possessions we want.however with this comes unsuccessful friendships,which becomes a heartache.haha today i chatted to dc again.quite a lot compared to the weeks that passed.however, it was short lived once again.just now talk talk talk i just called him weird n he was supposedly angry.i think pretend 1, but so dao, sms also dont reply. if its not pretend but real then i think he is really petty. ok he may be a bit cute at times, but these occasions simply make me feel that maybe his personalities and mine simply dont match.

whatever it is, its CNY now so im not gonna let all these affect my mood. im just gonna enjoy this festive period happily!

2007-02-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

about 1 more hr to chinese new year.cant wait.today had a perfect shopping spree at jurong point.my mum, sis and i spent close to 200bucks in just 1 plus hour.i bought aonther OP boards shorts and a darn nice white billabong wallet.

best feeling.now i have 4 complete sets of clothes + 2 shirts for chinese new year.so fruitful.a pity my "bro" is in m'sia already. ryan and zachary smsed me today. haha its on special occasions like these whereby you really remember your loved ones, apart from your family members.so here i am wishing every single one you happy new year.

this 1st part of the year is rather good for me. certain things cropped up here and there but now all is solved and im enjoying school.trying to get into the studying mood which im sure i will after CNY.

had reunion dinner with my mum dad sis n grandma just now.nice homecooked dinner.got real scallop somemore! my favourite. ok tmr will be the start of eating snacks =) my beloved barbequed pork! and start my new clothes and wallet! SHOIK.

haha so love all of you dudes.. enjoy the long holidays!

2007-02-16T21:42:00.000+08:00

the week has finally ended.and here comes my long CNY holidays.a time for all of us to gather and just spread the love around.and really welcome the year 2007!

this week has been rather nice.short and sweet i must say.soccer for the b' div is over this season already.time to train hard for next year.today after school stayed back to play soccer.ok bare footed my freekicks are not too bad.the curl is so nice just that its too high.went queensway where roo bought a nice tiempo while kevin bought new keeper gloves.

so sad jonathan go the m'sia to see his relatives already.lol past few days we chat a lot, on msn and on the phone.lol so now he gone like something is taken away.but 4 days not a long period of time lar..

cant wait for sun where CNY really starts!

2007-02-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

the last match is over. we won 7-1. good result but still not enough.we probably out due to 1pt or goal difference. but im proud of the team(i played 2nd half). we really played our lungs out from the 1st min to the end.eugene leighland pierson wycliff jim javier anthony daniel ervin bryan gareth shadiq chris and i had a part to play in this demolition! we all had good games and this is 1 match that will be rooted in our minds for months to come. this is probably the 1st time in b div i felt team spirit and it was nice.

time to say bye to the sec4s. sad time lar huh.parting always is hard but its a phase of life.but wont be so emo lar cause the sec4s also dont really care much 1 haha no sense of belonging. but im sure when we go that will ber darn sad! ok lar hope the time doesnt come so soon. gtg sleep goodnight!

2007-02-13T21:48:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is the 14th, VALENTINE'S DAY! what an irony, im spending it with a soccer ball. our final b' div match. but im not unhappy, cause thats where my besties come from (not counting my bros)... and we are there for a worthy cause. to fight for our school which really means a lot to me..it would be empty without students and being filled with the students i have formed friendships with, i love ACS. now and forever. so sad im leaving in 1 plus yr. seem long but will soon be over, i will miss everything, trust me!

i know tmr i will start on the bench, and probably end there too.but im not unhappy, cause its the last competitive match for the sec 4s. i salute those who have really fought hard to bring glory to the school even if they arent that good. ok i shall stop about the soccer part. continue tmr. after the match is over.

tmr is not just a day for boy-girl stuff.its also a day to celebrate great friendships forged. haha i bought mini toblerone for my best friends!haha such a nice guy right! hahahahaha ok cant wait for tomorrow.

2007-02-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

weekend speed past AS USUAL. but this weekend is nice.haha finally can stop bothering about dc and just be nice and myself to jonathan.best.

heavy workload this weekend.slacked too much on friday and sat so today i did my best but didnt finish everything.but not too bad i guess.tuition went well..

next week chinese new year already. i am just so happy! can wear my new clothes.so nice. cant wait to wear my new nike shirt and op board shorts.

ok school starts tmr but i dont dread school anymore. cause of all my friends i have.gonna treasure every second i have man. darn i cant update my template. so sad.. but i will do it soon..... i hope. wish me luck for my eng test tmr man!

2007-02-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

5days since i last posted. this has been a good week.fantastic for acs(i) soccer for sure. both b (5-4) and c(2-1) div won! thats great. personally, it has been a rather nice week too. my tests were not too bad. anyway it doesnt really count so nvm.cny is also coming so its going to be a nice month.though i exceeded my sms quoto by a lot already.

haha so cool.i always have 1 close junior for each year and im rather certain this year is gonna be jonathan ong.my soccer and sjab junior.what a pity. wished he was in my faction then it will be nice.but nvm. he really is a darn nice boy i tell you!really opposite from my initial judgement!haha in this week i've also managed to understand him a lot. shocked him with what i felt he was like.haha but thats not to be shown on here. a mini secret :P so now he is nother of my "bro" and the tally rises to 3. haha 1 day he will call me kor =)

lol that aint impt lar. not at all.just hope we can help each other and stuff. so sad this wed marks the end of b div interschool tournament.also marks the start of my 1 last year cca in soccer.so sad lar.i think when its time to leave i'll probably just cry and be so sad lar! i will miss my juniors man i promise.this is always the case when we leave school.why must i meet all these people so close to me.it always is so hard to part and we just dont have a choice.

but as i always say. i must not just dweel about parting, but instead be thankful for all the good times we have shared. i love you ACS(I). memories in here will never be forgotten.nothing will. my nice friends.my sweet juniors.even the not so nice toilets.i will not forget anything.how i wished i cld tune back the time by 2 yrs.when i was still a little sec1 boy.why didnt i treasure every minute i had.looking back i was foolish.certainly was.now i hope jonathan you wont make the same mistake! treasure the little time i have left in this school =(

2007-02-05T21:28:00.000+08:00

alright. today was kind of good i must say.we lost 3-2. but i feel we can still lift our heads up high cause we really fought to the end, unlike the previous match.and i got subbed on very early on like 15mins from the start. haha i must say i was very determined today, though i was rather shaky at the start, i fought for every ball and was running till the final whistle.

overall, i think i did well defensively but sad to say i did very badly offensively! my passing lousy.the pitch and ball all seem so weird to me. excuses. nevermind towards the end i became more suited to everything and started to play like the real me. a pity it was too late. but im quite satisfied for myself. i blocked a shot with my back, now still hurting.. intercepted a lot of passes. and made some good tackles. but i promise i would do even better if given a chance to again!

haha ok daniel can get out of my life. wasted 1 whole month bothering about his stuff in vain. both good n bad things eventually come to an end and im happy this has. in comes jonathan. haha last time i tot he like act big type. but as i get to know him i realise he actually the guai kid sort. unbelievable! its as miraculous as eugene slimming down to wad he is now in just 2 mths! haha but anyway im happy to realise i actually had such a nice junior. how nice if i didnt even know daniel from the start but instead got to know jonathan. but well, life doesnt always go your way but certainly i can learn from my mistakes!

2007-02-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

ok things look to be going better. my ankle is healing, and i had a rather good training today!daniel didnt go for match and todays training.dont know what he is up to but maybe i should just stop caring.i've done my part havent i? but i wld be disappointed if he just quit.i tried so hard, did so much to get him into the cca, and then the team, to give up now isnt it such a pity? but its his life so its all up to him, i have no say.

today i ate a lot. maybe cause im just relieved to have got ridof my worries over dc.finally.after training started my eating spree.ate bee noodles for lunch.then afternoon drank my chocolate milk.dinner ate 2pcs chicken meal at kfc and then ate macs ice cream.just now drank campbell soup for fun.lol im gonna grow fat!

ok tomorrow home the whole day. sian have chinese tuition in the morning. then will study like crazy. common test coming.although no percentage, i dont wanna do badly! so must study...

2007-02-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

tragedy.we lost 5-0. the worst thing.i didnt get to play a second.the match didnt go too badly.the team created many chances and thats a consolation we can take from the match.

c div lost 4-1. the standard of competition seemed to have dropped dramatically. but its a rather good result considering there were 7/11 sec 1s in 1st team. jonathan ong pro sia. sec 1 striker. he didnt score but he is physically strong and everything lar.

life has been neither good nor bad.think my friendship with dc is probably over. nothing i can do so i wont attempt to do anything. now just a junior and senior. not even a friend!

2007-01-30T20:25:00.000+08:00

life ain't really good these days.my studies are ok, but everything else seem to be crumbling! my maths seem to be improving and for that, im happy. but soccer is kind of driving me nuts.is it a generation gap or what? why cant sec1s just understand? i dun believe we were like that, neither were the present sec2s.

they dont listen or cooperate. what do they think soccer is? just a pasttime? just to kick the ball about? NO, this is a cca. we are here cause we want to train and bring glory to school.if u dont share the same belief, why dont you just get out!

im pissed.really am.first have the daniel chan incident. now most of them are even worse than him.only gabriel loke is really serious about soccer. but frankly i think daniel is too much and he aint thinking for himself too. i tell him frankly to ask for ball when he play in the midfield, he dun listen, instead turn away and dao. ok fine. fair enough. do u ever realise that how u ply, how u fair does not affect my life at all? we will NEVER play in the same division, team. but im doing all cause i care. but if this is wad im going to get in return, i dont think its worth it.think for yourself.i dont think you are dumb.

anyway as each day passes, the more i feel i should just completely not bother about you guys.

2007-01-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

tmr mon again. monday blues. haha ok anyway i've made up my mind. and that is not to bother about dc anymore. i've tried my best. but now you dun even want to reply my smses so fine. i made a mistake and maybe this is what i get and i accept it. but if u ever read this i will tell you that i never meant you any harm. all i wanted was to help you adapt to sec school life easily. and everything i said was for your own good. cause i want you to captain the team when u become sec2. but since you dont appreciate it, you dont want to hear then i give up.

but you thought me a lesson. and that is not to be so kind and nice to my juniors. maybe i tried too hard. just too hard. ok now i wont bother about you guys too much. i shall just live my life and not try to interfere with others'

2007-01-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

ok finally friday flies here again. my favourite time of the week. friday NIGHT. today went sjab. only 1 n 1/2 hr though. but i so inlucky kennna timer. but ok cause i feel that my timing very loud.so im satisfied. the business at school lecture later was rather boring. plus i was tired. so i dozed off. then tcher woke me up. so paiseh lor!

came home late. ate instant noodles and stuff. think im gonna fall sick now. i feel hungry but when i eat more i feel like puking. crap lar. life just aint going well for me now.im scared i puke tonight la. then that will suck big time.

tournament begins next week.cant afford to fall sick man.and i really hope the dc n i thing can be solved asap!

2007-01-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

Lifes bad bad bad! tues everything went wrong with dc and i. juniors are harder to handle as years goes by. its only been 2 years but maybe it wasnt a good idea to be so nice to juniors after all. im bringing unnecessary trouble to myself.

hao xin mei hao bao. from now i guess i wont be so nice to my juniors anymore. just live my own life and treat mmy best friends well.afterall, they are the ones i know and know me well.

ytd was dumb. i left my schoolbag in school after training, only taking my soccer bag. then after dinner at clementi i realised. then i rush back to school. lucky still there. otherwise i die liao.

think stress is overtaking my brains. i cant seem to concentrate in anything i attempt to do!wanna give up. lucky tmr friday liao

2007-01-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

today was a total horrid day! hate it. training was physically good, as in i enjoyed it, but matters that occured off the field pissed me off.. i helped convey a msg and got screwed for saying stuff i didnt say. then dc apparently said i was gay just cause i am nice to him. like wth lor. so i got really pissed altogether.

however now he claims l was just kidding and that he didnt say anything at all. if thats the case, i ought to be very sorry cause i went down hard on dc today. but its really complicated. dunno who i should believe. but the big qn now is, is it worth losing a friendship over such matters?

2007-01-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

another day gone but i like today! our ct finally showed her nicer side! now i can conclude. she's a good teacher

ok at times she is really biased. not against me but i can feel it.but she is actually kinda righteous. if thats the right word. when we do wrong, she goes hard on us. however, when we put in effort and do good, it will not go forgotten. in fact she commends us, irregardless of wad we did in the past. she is even willing to forgive hose who did wrong, taking back demerits.

finally the truth is shown. im glad i didnt jump to conclusions and simply trusted my judgements. haha think this year is gonna be a good 1. a nice class to be in, very good teachers. what a wonderful 2007 waiting for me :)

haha my junior dc is so darn funny. haha cute man. "sobs" i will never forget. lol. haha really believe its the duty of seniors to take care of juniors!nothing wrong right? haha

hopefully, kindness wont be forgotten. i will just be happy if they dun get led astray and be able to make good decisions in life. i myself made wrong decisions which i regret. but hopefully it aint too late and im sure theres time to redeem myself =)

2007-01-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

ok today had tuition. haha i didnt do much homework. last minute. only did 2 cloze passages. surprisingly, my teacher never scold. maybe she understnad that im tired and busy just after my trip. and im kinda grateful for that. haha when people treat you well, must really be grateful. never ever take anything or anyone for granted.

then there was an essay about parents vs friends. who is more impt in my life?
blood truly is thicker than water but when it comes to certain issues im sure i would rather confide in my best friends.

parents and siblings probably are the people who would willingly help you without a second thought, but sometimes i feel my friends understand me better.

nevertheless im very happy and satisfied in the family im in!oh today my dad just bought a new pair of nike sports shoes to share with me. ubt actually its more like he buy for me :) he seldom wears sports shoes, so its more like my shoe. but nevermind. he probably just said that so my mum wldnt exactly nag. not that she is naggy but i already bought a new adidas pair ytd =)

ok tomorrow back to school! dont know if its a good thing but i dont mind....

2007-01-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

charity bazaar is over! we did not bad lar. got back 300+ means we earned 200+

went to school early to get good place, set up stall. last night finished my beautiful price list. haha good we managed to sell everything, so my hard work paid off. ms ong and mr lee also helped towards the end. so everyone chipped in 1 way or another so im very satisfied!

went to jp for dinner with my parents, and i bought my new "school" shoes. quite nice lar. adidas. not too ex, 69.90. was 89.90 initially. its very white except some black highlights here and there. the 3 stripes very cool. black fade to white. so i like it!

2007-01-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

ok weekend again! but tomorrow i have to go school for charity bazaar. looking forward to it though.

haha managed to get some pics from vietnam. some very well taken too. but wait till i get all then i upload.

today was not too bad. didnt enjoy after 12.40 though. had to do poster then weiyi went back to school give teacher. but nevertheless not bad cause i think it was quite well done. my hardwork lor!

ok shall go do pricelist now. good night pals.!

2007-01-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

finally back from OEP.

its been a great learning experience.i made friends with almost all my classmates. initially i thought being in a geper class would be boring but actually they aint all those book worms.

however, there are some probs here and there as usual that somehow kind os spoilt some parts of the trip! but i believe if we all do our best, all misunderstandings can be solved.

teachers are really people who deserve our respect.i mean ok at times there are miscommunications here and there and maybe at times teachers just dont understanding how we think and stuff but we all have to look at the nice and good things they do for us too right?we always point out the bad things they do but do we ever look at the good things they do for us?

thats one thing we have to consider. maybe all would go well if we point out the mistakes we make and correct ourselves before we talk about what others do. this is the biggest lesson i learnt during OEP!

2007-01-10T21:41:00.000+08:00

ok todays wed. im using the com for 1 reason. im flying off tmr.. and as usual.. its emo period the day before i fly off, thinking of all sorts of disasters and everything. listening to news of terrorists and all. simply drives a chill down your spine.

7 days is quite a long period. and im already thinking of how much i will miss my friends. its just like last year. 1st day- homesick. but as time passes start to enjoy it and b4 you know it, its all over.then you start to regret not treasuring every moment there. but by then its too late.

this week has been rather good. made new friends. especially with juniors. thats 1 big acheivement, to gain their respect. though some of them, their respects aint worth anything to me at all.

but ive been very nice to one of them. maybe i shldnt, it aint really fair to the rest.so ok tonight i shall try helping him for the last time and after that, all neutral. ok i will be going vietnam tmr! miss you peoplee! see you soon!

2007-01-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

haix.1 day of the weekend is over.so sad! wa i gave 1 classmate my code for my locker. now im so scared he steal my books. then im dead. cause all my 3 science books in there. total cosst $75. so scared.man.. maybe i shldnt have gave him my code. but cant do anything now, only can wait for monday n i go see. but shldnt be stolen lar.

ok i went back to school today for "2nd round" of selections. we saw the people who wanna join soccer. so many so im quite happy. they all arent too bad. better than i was in sec 1 haha. but some are really so irritating.haha just wanted to punch some of them. on the other han, i think some are quite nice. 1 guy didnt come today, then i hao xin sms me but he reply so rude! hahhaa... but dont care lar, now i dont exactly know them yet, better not be too nice, or it'll be too close for comfort? hahahahhaha

ok so i really really hope my books are not lost, or else im in deep trouble. so now, hope god can help me and make sure they dont take my books. im worried. really am...

2007-01-05T20:31:00.000+08:00

with great power comes great responsibility. this is one phrase i would never forget. never.

now that im class chairman and captain of soccer, i dont think i can take up any more responsibilities, guess my life is as stressed as it is. not easy to juggle all these, together with my studies. and i think my friendship has been at the suffering end.

now tht im pressed for time, i seem to be a lousier senior, not being to be as nice and understanding and helpful to my juniors. the friendship at the worst situation now is with zach. when i put in effort, do everything i can to help you can care you dont realise and appreciate it. taking me for granted. only when i decide to give up do you realise that i was actually so nice to you. but is it too late? thats the biggest qn in my mind.a friendship has to be maintained by both parties. otherwise no matter what 1 party does, nth will come out of it.

the biggest issue is that i cant accept my best friend to look down on my cca.ok i agree we havent been able to achieve as much as rugby but you have to look at funding and everything too. you get the best players through DSA and then selections. all we get are people unwanted by other sports. you get a beautiful rugby field, we get a field with overgrown grass. we get an astro turf, you must leave a mark by placing rugby posts, and now we cant even have matches as the rugby posts block our goal posts from being on the goal line.

and as a best friend, what i need is constant encouragement, not words to put me down.others can look down on soccer, but how can you. thats the burning qn.so what do you want from me?

2007-01-05T19:35:00.000+08:00

stress.thats probably the best word to describe my life right now. as much as i dont want it to, i have no choice.

1st 3 days in school arent too bad.i was made class chairman by my class teacher, ms ong. dont know why zachary dont like her, feel that she is quite a nice teacher. but ytd mr john lee kinda scolded me for sth i feel i shldnt have been scolded about.i got scolded that i didnt call my classmates into class when they were outside class.and they apparently werent doing anything bad. so how was i supposed to know? i have my own work too.

so i was really frustrated and simply wanted to give up this post after my trip to vietnam.however, today and ytd ms ong has been really nice to me.not scolding me that i've not bought my book and that i didnt complete 3 sums for hw. actually biasness could be a better word. the 2 china scholars didnt do also and got scolded but i didnt.

i find her rather understanding a caring too. today jeremy's bag got lost.she made an effort to go find it.when she saw me she told me and asked my whether i knew about it.instead of asking me to help or whatsoever, she told me not to worry about it and she thanked me for my wanting to help.

ytd when i helped her she said thank you too.a sense of accomplishment? i like these teachers cause they show that they really appreciate every effort we try to make their life easier.

so because of how nice she was to me, i've decided not to step down,at least for the time being.she was the one who selected me to be class chairman.being confident that i am perfect for the post,that she made the right choice.so how can i give up and simply disappoint her? its quite bad lar huh, giving her hope when i accpeted it, and giving up so soon after.

but in my heart, im really thankful to have met such a teacher. one who have injected confidence into me once again just by her presence. now i know that every contribution, every effort i made in the years here in acs(i) is not wasted.

2007-01-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

school reopens tmr! weird feeling in me. both nervous but excited. meet new friends.. i mean make. haha this class looks rather different, so many new faces.

nevermind lar, no point being nervous. just be happy and face it.anyway no matter what i have to face it right? so might as well face it happily.

ok i've finally uploaded some of my china pictures...

ok all set and ready to go to school tomorrow. haha next time i get to blog is probably on saturday. cause im going study hard and not play computer on weekdays, only weekends. i have to do well! haha

2007-01-01T21:21:00.000+08:00

1st january already. school is reopening in 2 days. im not prepared. not at all.really think most of my holidays were wasted. but i cant turn the clock back. all i can do is make full use of the future. once school reopens im really going to study very hard. i have got to stop wasting my brains!

haha so the probs im going to face next year... hmmm.. i can foresee.. err..overly tough competition within my class.. all gepers..then sjab march camp. arghh..haha then comes all the ships..you know.. friendships.. relationships. HAHA hope not man.

ok tonights the last episode of the pilot show..so sad..its such a nice show but all good things come to an end. even in the best friendships, one day will come whereby it will simply crumble and all you can do is tear as you clear the mess. when this happens, would we be able to just say that we can be happy for the memories shared? easy to say but not easy to do!

ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END..... :(

2006-12-31T23:08:00.000+08:00

31st DEC. thats today's date. the last day of 2006.one more hour, gone and never back. friendships forged this year is my greatest achievement. apart from my improvement in soccer.

ok i hope to have a better year ahead.going to study real hard. and be a nice senior as i always am. but before that, my juniors are going to have to be worthy of it. so look ahead to better results in hopefully every aspect of my life! hope never to lose friends but always gaining new ones! haha

ok so dudes buck up.hope we can all do better next year.

2006-12-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

school reopening in 4 days. it seemed like just last week where i was counting down to start of holidays! but nevertheless im quite happy with this holidays. i wouldnt say it was fantastically well spent but at least i didnt let it entirely go to waste!perhaps last year was spent better but no looking back. all forward!

ok this holidays.. what did i do? i helped my pri school teacher a few times. i managed to "revive" my friendship with ryan. i strengthened friendships with many friends. i went back to china and they were so happy to see my family and i. frankly thats where i finally understood what warmth was all about. in singapore, our lives are too busy and fast. never are we able to sit down and just have a heart to heart chat and really express our feelings. arent we so deprieved??

haha i think ryan and i are drifting apart. its really tough to maintain a friendship like that. maybe he is just too young. immature wouldnt be a suitable word =P haha but theres nothing i can do right? so i shall just wait and see....

today i watched night in the musuem and had steamboat with my family at home. nice. movie was so good! its kind of a comedy but i must say there are some lessons to be drawn. maybe that everyone have a little greatness in them. and that sometimes the only way to success is teamwork.

so guys lets wok hand in hand for a better future! :)

2006-12-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

ok just returned safely from my holiday in hainan island, china. it was a kind of lousy shopping place but the purpose was to see my relatives and in that case it was a greaat success!

however during the first five days,i went to haikou,xinlong,sanya for sightseeing.only haikou was not in a gp and was shopping, free and easy. all the food served while in the tour SUCKS! so much vegetables and gross meat. all fat. but suprisingly i lost 1 kg in the trip!

going back to village was kind of an emotional thing.cause my parents had my 2 sis. then they came the village to pray for a son and practically the whole village was involved in the ritual someway or another.. yup so when we arrived 2 very elderly women were happy and even shed tears.

their actions really warmed our hearts. they spent money on a big feast just for us although they are so poor. obviously we gave them loads of money before leaving lar but ya..then when we left the village they cried lor. so sad.then when we were at the hotel the next morning, they came at 6am just to bid us farewell b4 we went back to the city 100km away! and they didnt call us or let us know cause they didnt want us to hurry. even the old lady stood out in the cold morning about 16degrees! and its for about 1 and half hr standing b4 we came down for breakfast then we saw them! so touched.

pics cant get up... darn!

2006-12-22T20:43:00.000+08:00

my last post before i fly to china for holiday. hope its not my last though..

hmmm im kind of all packed and ready to go. but i havent put my stuff into the luggage cause im sharing a big one with my dad. however i sorted out all those i want to bring already.

its quite exciting going there as it seems that this hainan island is a really interesting place. whats more, i havent been there before. but im taking tiger airway.. cheap but no food and simply nothing at all.

im leaving home at 2.45am tonight.. and by time i reach, it would be about 9 and our day begins so i have to sleep tonight..

its quite frustrating cause ryan supposedly come back from korea on thurs, 2 days ago. but till now he also never sms me. its kind of weird. i hope he busy or sth and not sth happen. but its weird cause when i sms he never even reply. but its kinda sad if he is back and fine but never sms me. maybe its just our wishful thinking that we can be bros, good friends. 1 thing is that he is so much younger than me. we are also not in the same school and its so difficult to meet and keep in touch! maybe theres a generation gapor something lar. before dec i havent even met him for 2 yrs and i seemed to be a complete stranger to him when we first met! how time flies and perhaps the cycle is about to start all over again.

ok people i guess i will have to end here. enjoy the last part of holiday and i sure hope to see you guys soon. 7 days. quite a long period of time but im sure i'll be home soon enough. till then, take care. =)

2006-12-20T20:09:00.000+08:00

today was quite a fun day! haha met up with trev and ervin at jp, ate lunch then came my hse. we played fifa07 and halo on my xbox. it was so fun. super funny, especially when we played with rocket launders in halo, laugh like crazy the way we kenna shocked.

ok other than that nothing much. and sad lar. im flying to hainan island for holiday on sat already. means school is reopening already. and that the time i can spend with my friends is diminishing every day.haha but tomorrow ryan will be back from his korea holiday, haha people taking turns to go and come back.

oh and ervin, yup i got 2 brothers, in case you didnt know. 1 is ZACHARY who is in acs(i). whom you know and is sec 1'06. sec 2 next year. the other 1 is RYAN. the one in my display pic. HAHA get it????? lol.

ok and trevor let me tell you sometime. haha i bravely put it on my blog! haha boys and girls CAN be normal friends. and can also be VERY VERY GOOD FRIENDS. and not simply boyfriend and girlfriend. haha so since you know me, you MUST know i will NOT go into a bgr at this point of time. haha understand??? haha you must know what im talking about =D

2006-12-19T20:30:00.000+08:00

today spent most of my time at plaza singapore. while waiting for preston, ervin, trevor and i played arcade for a while. quite fun lar. we played this retarded shooting game whereby we had to dodge bullets, as in by moving our own body! then we watched the holiday. its romance but not very nice lar. not touching enough.

we saw darly cheng, our schoolmate, together with charmaince koh, the sc squasher. haha daryal claims she is just a friend. but watching a romanc movie together without any other "friends", possible to be just friends? haha

then after that we ate gelare waffle with ice cream. their service so bad lar. forget my order, then i had to go remind them then they serve me after trev and ervin ate finish theirs'.

ok then when i came home, my life somehow turned horrid.not raining then when i got off the bus it started raining. make me wet. then i come home my sis use com. after that i use she also wanna check things. then my com so screwed up. so freaking lag. i play soccer game lag like 2 secs.. how to play lor..

then a lot of things lar so i freaking frustrated. then i think i was quite short tempered to people who talked to me nicely. sorry

2006-12-17T21:56:00.000+08:00

ok today i went to velocity. nothing mych lar. just a small extension from novena square. my trip was fruitful though =P

ok and i ate haigen daz ice cream. ok however it is spelt.my parents went kopitiam cause they dont like ice cream. haha. my 2 sis and i spent 25 bucks on ice cream! haha but my eldest sis paid. she is working long time liao so its ok. a norm for her to eat that ice cream.

i bought a pair of hot new boots.! super nice. let me upload the pics!

ok i love it a lot. i saw it last time at jp and fell in love with it cause of it studs :P

however i didnt want to spend money cause i already had my expensive and nice predator. its usual price is about 70+.

how much did i pay? secret! haha but knowing me, i got a very good price =)

ok then i went to quality restaurant for porridge buffet. so nice man. i ate a lot. far too much :) but nvm. i just have to exercise to keep fit! haha ok thats all for today.

2006-12-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

today i went to orchard with my parents.shopped but i didnt buy anything. nothing at all.

dinner was good. i ate 2pcs meal from KFC. then my parents bought a chicken from crystal jade restaurant. super nice. then we also shared. its just delicious.

haha and i just realised we must make a flag for st johns group on the 1st parade. die lar. but doubt other gps would do it

nothing much happened today. just another day...

2006-12-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

alright. today was so so lar. but as time pass i really cant stand beaurhys. he is ridiculous. he pesters derek to watch a movie with him. then derek reluctant he say he already bought tickets. but when derek say no to him he tells the truth: he didnt even buy the tickets in the first place. but nicely he put it, "my mum forgot to buy them"

well its really difficult to realise such people exists in the world. but its a fact. ok anyway my morning was spent with trev and derek at queensway looking at soccer boots and stuff.. we ate laksa for "breakfast" its fantastic i tell you. $3 but its a really small bowl. HOWEVER, its is awesome. delicious and everything. then i ate muah chee. ltr we ate macs for lunch. haha derek is a retard. but its was funny. we were looking at the mcdonald "poster" and he said he just realised mcdonald is a clown. ok then lame jokes followed. but it was really funny!

ok then we cabbed to school for training as it was quite late. trevor paid for it =) then we changed and everything. match went quite well, we lost 1-0 to our b div. but its quite good because in our match last week, we lost 5-1 even though they only had 8 players. so we improved.thats good. we had many good chances too.

oh after that we played against a team of some sec 1s and many P6es who wanted to appeal. we lost. 2-1. we were really tired but well we shldnt have lost. ok anyway the worst thing was that beaurhys scored a goal! and that was the worst thing. it was a free kick, super close to the goal. our coach made our wall and positioning of our keeper. but beaurhys kinda tycolly managed to get the ball over the wall. thats amazing for someone like him. our goalkeeper stretched really far, but was only able to hit the ball against the crossbar and it went in.

then after that beaurhys was like going around telling us "i think we won right" and i heard from the rest that he kept bragging about his goal. so most of my team mates are unhappy with him. but it waas just a matter of time before he got on their nerves. yup now even daniel doesnt like him. these kind of people, already no friends yet so cocky and everything. ok maybe its because of his attitude that people hates him. but nevermind its none of my concern now.

2006-12-14T21:35:00.000+08:00

oh well.. today is a boring day stucked at home.. and my bro is off the korea.. 6 days.. long time.. hahahha but nevermind. when he returns there will 1 full day we can chat and then im off to china. haha so accurate, our timings..

haha today someone asked me " is it ok to be closer to your friends than your own brother" ? quite a good qn huh? haha but frankly i feel that thats okay.. i got a lot of opinions one! i feel that we can all do whatever we feel is right. and that we dont need to bother about what other people think. dont you agree?

ain't life gonna be very taxing if we spend a huge portion of it thinking about what people think about us? i mean like, is that really important? i dont think so.

so i live my life just doing what i feel is right and what i wish to, sparing a thought about others feelings but certainly not how they think about me.

ok i gtg so have to stop here. cya people.!

2006-12-12T20:35:00.000+08:00

today was good.. last minute planning. haha morning trev decided to come my hse and we invited ervin derek and beaurhys but derek cldnt make it.

haha everything was fun and nice except beaurhys. ok now i shall never invite him again. haha but he is really dumb. he knows that we dont really like him yet he still come. what can i say? maybe he is happy that he is invited out. haha.

he is cheapskate and everything lor. we eat long john silvers for lunch. then he say he dont wanna eat go library go popular. he just wants us to be concerned and persuade him to eat and stuff but no way! then he act so pitiful and all the crap..its really irritating. then he start scavenging all of ervin's "leftovers" as though he some kind of beggar.

ok nevermind. come my house we went to play soccer. then trev sabo me.. what acs(p) vs acs(j). so they 2 same team.. walau.. you just can imagine how nice and pro and amazing my "team-mate" was.

after that we went somewhere nearby to buy drinks. trev owe ervin money so just treat him to drinks. oh he treated me too. then beaurhys just keep saying he no money. then trev offer to lend him cause he was the only person who brought wallet. but he dont want. say what not thirsty and all the stuff.. then when we all buy finish he start freeloading ervin as usual. haha cant believe this kind of people also exist. but other than that everything was fine. t was a lot of fun. really! haha

ok tmr we are going to ervin house. me derek and trev. no beaurhys, he aint invited.. even derek who was his friend few days ago cant stand him now. cause he keep smsing us but derek now cause we all dont bother to talk to him. then derek irritated cause beaurhys keeps asking him out and waste his life. haha such a pity. i think he simply has a lack of friends..... haha... but he has to do some reflection. people arent accepted by everyone but most have many friends. not to say a few best ones..haha but since he thinks so highly of himself and everything.. its just his own problem if he doesnt have friends...

2006-12-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

ok today rocks! haha. morning i woke up and worked hard to finish the present for ryan and rhys. think i spent like 10hrs in the card and everything.. put i find it worthwhile.. anyway this may be the last time i give them sth because its really diff to keep contact with someone so much younger and in a diff school from you.

ok then i went to my pri school busstop where i met up with the school ex dance tcher in charge who was going out with ryan rhys their mum also. haha then soon their super cool black BMW came and we hopped in. haha

ok we had lunch at s'pore chinese swimming club and bowled and ate dessert. it was really fun! haha but i witnessed the 2 bros kinda quarrel and fight. it was kinda sad cause they 2 got scolded by their mum and rhys cried. but what can i do. we all play around when we were young. hopefully through the scoldings they will like learn not to be so naughty.

haha anyway i really njoyed time spent with them. such innocence, such sincerity. they really dont care what others think of them and just want to have fun and everything. such a pity they are flying off the day after tmr....

2006-12-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

oh man.. i never blog for 3 days..ok this 1st blog shall be short. just about sat and sun. sat was fun! i went to LMM with my sis and mum. we are cafe cartel! i love that place.i ate my normal fish and chips as usual. i always eat that wherever i go haha..then have the free flow of bread! so nice! hahahah the bread is so nicenicenice! the service was also so good! they serve us quickly and very politely.

for sunday.. so so lar.. had tuition as usual.. then lunch and dinner and nth much happened.. ok thats all that realy happened in the last 2 days.

2006-12-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

ok another day gone.. today was ok lar. morning ate breakfast with ervin derek eugene. big breakfast at macs. cost me $5.30!haha then he had quite a fun time there lar..haha the tea incident so funny..haha we cldnt refil.then 4 of us take turn go try. ltr derek asked that guy "how to operate it" as in the flask. haha then we realised it was empty! so malu lor all of us go there and try to pour tea out of an empty flask!

haha then we took cab to school cause eugene wanted to. he paid most of it anyway. the funny thing was that the driver forgot to turn on the meter!then eugene told me to press on my hp some numbers. then i realised.. haha then we decided to tell the driver. but he didnt turn it on. when reach school then he say it costs 4 bucks! so just pay and forget it..

match wasnt too bad.we lost by quite a big margin but we enjoyed ourselves! it was very hot and we were all super tired! 2 P6s from acs(j) and (p) came for trials cause their PSLE marks 1 below the required 235..cause affiliated school mah. the (p) 1 was my ex dancemate.. haha he is quite good at soccer.. 1st half he play right mid the beaurhys played strike. we only had 2 shots and 1 was mine while the other was joshua. all midfielders! wth lor..haha mine was nice just lacked the power.. it was ok other than that..

2nd half nabeel the P6 wanted to play strike. so i dun mind lar. anyway beaurhys is useless so just play him as right wing lor. what could be worse anyway! haha suddenly the game really turned on man! we manage to pull 1 back.. from my pass which opened joshua and 1 on 1 he just place it in.. so nice.. i played well in the 2nd half too..made many good passes and runs.. haha and i managed to steal the ball from the throw in cause of my push on anthony :) haha im aggressive :P

ok other then that nothing much lar. oh i was supposed to go american club but weipyi wanted to go, derek too. since ervin can only bring in 1.. i gave up my place! so kind right! hahahhaa im learning to give in and be nice.. thanks to he influence from ryan haha! the sincerity touched me lol! haha yup but i guess its good. but anyway in that time i managed to do my tuition hw and progress with my card for the 2 bros.. so im quite happy! haha hope my holidays can be spent wisely.. haha ok i shall blog again tmr!

2006-12-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

ok didnt do much today. slacked in morning then went jp to develop pics to make christmas card for ryan n rhys. also bought them candy canes. haha i took pics of their presents from me! a hp strap, a candy cane, and a personalise card :) (thats not completed!)

haha i think the card is kinda cute! but i spent a long while to do it! bout 3 hours.. now still have rhys side. he's gonnna be an elf.. haha and i havent written anything for them yet.

ok tmr is our match that was postponed. hope we do well. doesnt need to be a win. i just hope everyone of us put in our best and thats enough! haha

2006-12-06T20:45:00.000+08:00

ok today was so so..but its rather sad.. my coach brother passed away in an accident. heard that the water pipe on causeway burst but im not sure about that cause i didnt even see it on the news! ok but through this i can really see that our life are so fragile. if i were to meet with an accident would i die with regrets?

im sure i would. but if i were to just leave the world. would it make any difference to you? well thats probably the most impt question i can ask.

i also read on my friend's blog. he asked himself a good question. what have i done in these 14 years of existance? did i manage to change a person? did i put my best in everything i tried to do? think my life is quite disappointing.. feel that i wasted a large portion of my life just playing and looking on as secs ticked by. what a pity. but the thing that really consoles me is the group of marvellous friends a manage to have as i grew up. till now im still close to my P6 gang.. which comprises of kevin, justinlow and people! haha then now i managed to find a great friend (maybe brother) in ryan :P haha feels good to have a young bro haha!

but i kinda feel guilty. haha his hp is plan but no free smses. then he always ask me sms him then he also reply. haha now im really scared that he get scolded by his parents. but it should be ok lar. his parents are really nice!

haha ok for now i shall stop wasting my life. starting from tomorrow!

2006-12-05T20:32:00.001+08:00

ok todays kinda great.. played soccer in school with 3 other soccer people.. trained a lot.. from 1.30 to 5! thats 3 and a half hr! practiced set pieces.. (my freekicks corner kicks and penalties) we trained volleying too.. quite a lot lar n situational..

think my shots are much better now.. i managed to curl in many shots and ya thats good. i smashed the crossbar 6times too! quite pro =)

came home n was dead beat.. lie in bed n nap for like 20mins. then had dinner.. but i got no appetite.. felt sick n everything!but i manage to eat as much as possible.. now im not full already. maybe i shall just go eat instant noodles later :P hahaha

tmr's our final match! tournament didnt go too well.. but well if we tried our best its fine and i think i did!

2006-12-05T20:32:00.000+08:00

2006-12-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

wa today was ok lar.. my sis lose her wallet.. thats sad.. our key cost 50bucks.. then she lost her ez-link card..ok enough bout that..

had tuition.. my tcher bought even more books.. sec 4 somemore.. so difficult lor! then we left to geylang serai area.. walk a lot.. i saw a lot.. learnt a lot n everything...

then had dinner at a nice canton restaurant.. my uncle treat coz he strike a lot in 4D.. haha he gave up kids red packets too.. 50bucks! hahahaha

ok anyway today not too bad lar.. my idiotic junior now put on his msn..
"My captain scolded me a while back...i wanted to feel sad but i couldn't 'cos i didn't know what the hell he was talking about... "

wad bullshit he dun understand.. everything i said he can even talk back.. another pplot to gain sympathy.. haha nvm.. he juz getting hated even more..haha ok he is occupying a whole lot on my blog so im not gonna mention him any further..

oh today while walking n staring up into the sky..i started to think bout all my close friends n everything..then i started to think bout ryan... hahaha wished he was my younger bro man! but such a pity he is not.. :( haha so sad man.. wont get to see him in near future..mayb rhys bdae was the last time we wld ever meet.. n when we do.. it will be a whole cycle.. lyk strangers all over again.. so sad man.. if only our friendship was strong n steady n everlasting.. but nth goes ur way in life...nvm i'll send him a christmas present.. :) ok goodnight people..

2006-12-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

ok i shall blog..haha today was kinda shiok.. lunch was dimsum at chinasquar.. the tonglock gp restaurant..coz my mum had 50bucks voucher..

my 2 sis,mum n i went to eat.. total83bucks.. only pay33.. n its so nice!i bought a new shirt from robinson.. so nice.. white colour 1...

ok nite was ok.. was chatting to pple on msn..haha then beaurhys wanna try suan me... but guess wad... he failed.. he so childish lar.. tok tok tok then halfway cant say anymore say wad he go play dota.. nvm i suan him a lot..

cry cry cry in training lyk a big baby.. then dun wanna tell pple his reason.. well mayb no good reason.. only coz he wan sympathy..

this is the 1st time im so hurting to a person..especially a junior.. hahahah im so nice n caring to people like zachary and ryan.. hahaha but nvm.. he deserves it.. cant believe i ever tried to befriend him.. now i finally realise why he dun really have friends.. how sad.. i tried to help but its impossible..

then toked to ys bout younger siblings.. haha so sad man u no younger sibling to take care of.. DARN! such a pleasure to take care n love a small young sibling..n to see it returned..easy with these young 1s.. n see them finally mature n grow up.. haha! n im sure ryan wun grow up to be lyk beauhrys.. or else.. so sad.. but cant lar.. ryan got so many friends.. loved by his classmates.. such a nice boy.. thoughful and everything.. total opposite..

ok my blog is over.. signing off :P